Is it possible.....?
Could it be......?
I think so (:
I can say that here lately I have had some pretty rough ups and downs....
Roger and I breaking up, me canceling my test. to having some of the greatest people enter into my life.
I have my high school best friend back in my life. I have another best friend who is soon to be my roommate.. My job which i love, because of the people there... I know they are in my life for a reason.. to the amazing guy who has stolen my heart. I really couldnt be happier...
My downs still come out... like when am i gonna take this friggin test.... when is my money situation ever going to get better.. when is my ex going to stop texting and calling everyone that was on his cell phone bill this past month to try and figure out who i have been talking to... hello..... why do you want to know??
Anyways So just a random thought...
People always say he is in your past for a reason, dont go back to the past... ok well then people in the same breath say well if he comes back then you know he is the one.... LOL hello that makes no since whats so ever!
so anyways... im addicted to pinterest... i have planned every Christmas gift and every house decor... lol i stay on it all the time! :) :)
Im getting a new kitty this weekend... not sure if its a boy or a girl.. but its pretty.and then in about 3 weeks ill have Rupert living with me... :) he is a BOXER!!!! WHOOO finally a dog.. and not only a dog but my protector and my exercise buddy! :)
Callie is taking her test in like 2 1/2 weeks so we have been studying non stop.. when i get paid again i am going to pay for my test and try to take it in January :)
anyways I am going to bed.. staying up till 2:30 and getting up at 5:30 is starting to kick my butt. but it was worth every second! :)
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Monday, December 5, 2011
Love
Love is when your heart races and you cant breathe when you are looking into his eyes.
Love is when he grabs your hand and sizes it up with his.
Love is when you stare into each others eyes and you get lost in the moment and realize that God created this creature just for you.
Love is when your getting ready for your date and your butterflies get so bad you scream out loud.
Love is when you walk up to him and all you know to do is breathe and smile and thank God for this amazing person.
Love is when you think about that person every second of every minute and every minute of everyday.
Love is when you lay your head on his chest and realize your heart beat matches his and you breathe the exact same.
Love is when you say the same thing at the same exact time.
Love is when you cry everytime he isnt around to talk to him when you need it most.
Love is when you cry during the sweetest kiss you've ever had.
Love is when you see a shooting star and just smile because your wish has already come true.
Love is when you cant sleep because your thinking about him too much
Love is when you realize no one or nothing else matters as long as he is around
Love is when you dont want to miss a second of his life
Love is when you want to experince life with him.
LOVE is the most amazing thing that God has created. I could sit here and go on and on and on about love.
Love is a strong word and the most meaningful word ever invented.
Love love love love
:) ALM
Love is when he grabs your hand and sizes it up with his.
Love is when you stare into each others eyes and you get lost in the moment and realize that God created this creature just for you.
Love is when your getting ready for your date and your butterflies get so bad you scream out loud.
Love is when you walk up to him and all you know to do is breathe and smile and thank God for this amazing person.
Love is when you think about that person every second of every minute and every minute of everyday.
Love is when you lay your head on his chest and realize your heart beat matches his and you breathe the exact same.
Love is when you say the same thing at the same exact time.
Love is when you cry everytime he isnt around to talk to him when you need it most.
Love is when you cry during the sweetest kiss you've ever had.
Love is when you see a shooting star and just smile because your wish has already come true.
Love is when you cant sleep because your thinking about him too much
Love is when you realize no one or nothing else matters as long as he is around
Love is when you dont want to miss a second of his life
Love is when you want to experince life with him.
LOVE is the most amazing thing that God has created. I could sit here and go on and on and on about love.
Love is a strong word and the most meaningful word ever invented.
Love love love love
:) ALM
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Time out
God speaks loud and clear! When his child is falling, he speaks to rescue and save his children. It takes a very strong obedient one to listen.
As a child who loves the lord I heard God crying out for me. Not only that but I felt my heart becoming empty, because God was starting to disappear in my life. I was filling that empty was with other things that should not have been there.
Roger and I have realized that we have fallen away from God. Our desires are not there anymore, do because of that our relationship has started to faultier. We have decided to take a "timeout" and spend time with the lord.
I want to be in Gods will.
We are taking this time to pray about our relationship! And our relationship with God!
As a child who loves the lord I heard God crying out for me. Not only that but I felt my heart becoming empty, because God was starting to disappear in my life. I was filling that empty was with other things that should not have been there.
Roger and I have realized that we have fallen away from God. Our desires are not there anymore, do because of that our relationship has started to faultier. We have decided to take a "timeout" and spend time with the lord.
I want to be in Gods will.
We are taking this time to pray about our relationship! And our relationship with God!
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Its What You Deserve
Sometimes life will throw you curve balls. The question is can you catch them? Have you had enough practice???
Well I have been dealing with certain curve balls for quite sometime now.
Ive always grown up knowing we deserve the best of the best.
We should never settle for less.
a lot of these statements come from a girls perspective.
" A man should NEVER stop pursuing his woman"
"His woman should NEVER have to ask for a poem, flowers, or a simple date"
"A woman's confidence rides on the fence, because she never knows what her man is going to say or do"
"A Man should ALWAYS uplift his woman"
Why am I talking about all this? Well I have been noticing this in my relationship.
roger and I have a love for each other that's so unique in itself.
I just miss going on dates, getting flowers like i did in the beginning, i miss him chasing me... and him "pursuing" me.
I just want him to know i am struggling with this, and i have thrown up hints for ever and talked to him... but instead I get a poem from BOB Marley about I'm not the guy to send roses or write poems...... respect the guy I am.... Um no... you are not that guy, if you are then we got a lot of talking to do.
One day a guy will come by and chase a girl that he wants and I don't want that to happen to me and roger. But I have seen it happen to many times. and It has happened to me before.
I am just wanting to be treated like i know i deserve, and Roger does a very good job at everything, but we are still dating, we are not married, and i will not just sit here being bored, wondering what it would be like to go on dates or get flowers...
anyways maybe it is wrong for me to post this, it might start a fight, but i have to speak my mind. that's what blogs are for.
Well I have been dealing with certain curve balls for quite sometime now.
Ive always grown up knowing we deserve the best of the best.
We should never settle for less.
a lot of these statements come from a girls perspective.
" A man should NEVER stop pursuing his woman"
"His woman should NEVER have to ask for a poem, flowers, or a simple date"
"A woman's confidence rides on the fence, because she never knows what her man is going to say or do"
"A Man should ALWAYS uplift his woman"
Why am I talking about all this? Well I have been noticing this in my relationship.
roger and I have a love for each other that's so unique in itself.
I just miss going on dates, getting flowers like i did in the beginning, i miss him chasing me... and him "pursuing" me.
I just want him to know i am struggling with this, and i have thrown up hints for ever and talked to him... but instead I get a poem from BOB Marley about I'm not the guy to send roses or write poems...... respect the guy I am.... Um no... you are not that guy, if you are then we got a lot of talking to do.
One day a guy will come by and chase a girl that he wants and I don't want that to happen to me and roger. But I have seen it happen to many times. and It has happened to me before.
I am just wanting to be treated like i know i deserve, and Roger does a very good job at everything, but we are still dating, we are not married, and i will not just sit here being bored, wondering what it would be like to go on dates or get flowers...
anyways maybe it is wrong for me to post this, it might start a fight, but i have to speak my mind. that's what blogs are for.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
One more day
Tomorrow will be my last day at the chiropractic clinic.
Yesterday proved to me that I needed to move on.
Drama is not my thing and I will not accept it or deal with it.
Bishop told us " you deserve what you tolerate"
If you tolerate bad things being said about you, then you deserve it.
So I do not deserve being betrayed or having stress in my life so I will not tolerate it any longer!
I will miss my dear friends here, but there comes a time in life that you have to move on and it is now my time.
I am leaving on Friday on my cruise! I will have tons of pictures to post when I get back! :-)
I cannot wait to be full time at 2 girls and a spa! I get my own room! So exciting!!!!
Studying has been on the bottom of my list this week and I'm starting to panic, I gotta get back on it! It will be here before I know it!
Anyways I saw a quote today that I loved! I wish people were like money so I could hold them up to the light to see if they were fake or not!
ALM
<3
CRS
Yesterday proved to me that I needed to move on.
Drama is not my thing and I will not accept it or deal with it.
Bishop told us " you deserve what you tolerate"
If you tolerate bad things being said about you, then you deserve it.
So I do not deserve being betrayed or having stress in my life so I will not tolerate it any longer!
I will miss my dear friends here, but there comes a time in life that you have to move on and it is now my time.
I am leaving on Friday on my cruise! I will have tons of pictures to post when I get back! :-)
I cannot wait to be full time at 2 girls and a spa! I get my own room! So exciting!!!!
Studying has been on the bottom of my list this week and I'm starting to panic, I gotta get back on it! It will be here before I know it!
Anyways I saw a quote today that I loved! I wish people were like money so I could hold them up to the light to see if they were fake or not!
ALM
<3
CRS
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
I forgot
I forgot I had a blog......
This just goes to show that I have been way too busy.
Well lets start off with the most exciting. I got a new JOB! YEAH! On the 6th of October I will leave Alignment Chiropractic ( bittersweet) but Oh so ready.
I will start working at............................... TWO GIRLS AND A SPA on the 18th of October! I have already been working at their Dothan location on Friday and Saturday! Its hard work, but I love it. I will be working at the Daleville Location :) YES I said it correctly.. DAleville LOL Fort Rucker traffic. :) DUH
My body has been killing me for a week though. :-( but.. it is just something I will get use to, like when I started massage school.
On the 8th of October I will be setting sail to the BAHAMAS!!!! for 7 days.. Yes I am so excited! This Vacation is so long over due! I'm not going to do anything but RELAX!
My test is coming up pretty quickly (sigh) but... I'm going to kick butt! I have this amazing spa to look forward too and that is helping me get more motivated!
I'm not sure what my schedule will be over their. But I am praying I will be able to get off in time for church on Wednesday so I can continue to sing. :)
Speaking of that...its quite crazy right now, we have a lot of new singers and instruments. Its is very easy to have some type of drama... I wonder if this is Gods way of pulling me out of Drama. I mean it has already caused a few arguments between me and Roger. But A lot of that has to do with me and what a control freak I am when it comes to music. I have to keep reminding myself that it is a YOUTH band and I'm not a YOUTH anymore. ( sigh)
Claybank is this Saturday and I have a booth! Yes me... :)
Rachelle and I are going to be selling a few things. I just pray we make some money!
I'm selling feathers...( I keep changing my mind on how much) Rachelle is selling Headbands and Door hangers.
I hope it goes well. The word on the street is that everyone is selling feathers, but I'm not too worried about it, because I can sell them at the spa and at church soooo. :)
I got my hair chopped off! its above my shoulders! LOL but I love it!
Roger bought me the movie bridesmaids and the new glee season!!!! :) I love it! :)
Speaking of Roger.. we are doing good. we have had our moments this past month.. I'm thinking seriously about going to a couples conference in October..
Its hard to express our self, we both are not very confrontational people. so I think we tend to hold things in, and that's not a good thing.
also I think we need to re-light the fire. we sound like a married couple but we aren't. but even when you are dating someone, you have to pursue them on a daily bases. you cant just assume that because you have them that you will always have them just because of what happened on your first couple of dates. you have to work hard to make sure the fire stays lit.
anyways I'm babbling on and on... so anyways.
I am about to eat my breakfast (without the doctor finding out) because we cant have sugar in the office. ;-)
I will try not to stay away so long next time.
This just goes to show that I have been way too busy.
Well lets start off with the most exciting. I got a new JOB! YEAH! On the 6th of October I will leave Alignment Chiropractic ( bittersweet) but Oh so ready.
I will start working at............................... TWO GIRLS AND A SPA on the 18th of October! I have already been working at their Dothan location on Friday and Saturday! Its hard work, but I love it. I will be working at the Daleville Location :) YES I said it correctly.. DAleville LOL Fort Rucker traffic. :) DUH
My body has been killing me for a week though. :-( but.. it is just something I will get use to, like when I started massage school.
On the 8th of October I will be setting sail to the BAHAMAS!!!! for 7 days.. Yes I am so excited! This Vacation is so long over due! I'm not going to do anything but RELAX!
My test is coming up pretty quickly (sigh) but... I'm going to kick butt! I have this amazing spa to look forward too and that is helping me get more motivated!
I'm not sure what my schedule will be over their. But I am praying I will be able to get off in time for church on Wednesday so I can continue to sing. :)
Speaking of that...its quite crazy right now, we have a lot of new singers and instruments. Its is very easy to have some type of drama... I wonder if this is Gods way of pulling me out of Drama. I mean it has already caused a few arguments between me and Roger. But A lot of that has to do with me and what a control freak I am when it comes to music. I have to keep reminding myself that it is a YOUTH band and I'm not a YOUTH anymore. ( sigh)
Claybank is this Saturday and I have a booth! Yes me... :)
Rachelle and I are going to be selling a few things. I just pray we make some money!
I'm selling feathers...( I keep changing my mind on how much) Rachelle is selling Headbands and Door hangers.
I hope it goes well. The word on the street is that everyone is selling feathers, but I'm not too worried about it, because I can sell them at the spa and at church soooo. :)
I got my hair chopped off! its above my shoulders! LOL but I love it!
Roger bought me the movie bridesmaids and the new glee season!!!! :) I love it! :)
Speaking of Roger.. we are doing good. we have had our moments this past month.. I'm thinking seriously about going to a couples conference in October..
Its hard to express our self, we both are not very confrontational people. so I think we tend to hold things in, and that's not a good thing.
also I think we need to re-light the fire. we sound like a married couple but we aren't. but even when you are dating someone, you have to pursue them on a daily bases. you cant just assume that because you have them that you will always have them just because of what happened on your first couple of dates. you have to work hard to make sure the fire stays lit.
anyways I'm babbling on and on... so anyways.
I am about to eat my breakfast (without the doctor finding out) because we cant have sugar in the office. ;-)
I will try not to stay away so long next time.
Friday, September 9, 2011
Keeping you up to date
Good Morning
I have not posted anything for September yet so I decided I would :)
Today was the first time I have turned the heater on in my car since last winter. Its only September this is crazy weather. Im still white. LOL I would like to have a tan, but it doesnt look like thats going to happen. I guess I'll have to go back to using tan towels again. ( walking around smelling like burnt skin) why? you didnt burn yourself!
anyways the weather is amazing today! Not one cloud in site. Perfect day for a pic nic.
Im hoping to have one of those this weekend while im in montgomery! :) Roger is taking me to Church of the Highlands and then I hope I hope we go to Shakespeare park! :)
He is taking me to dinner and a movie tonight~ Im so excited! I love date nights! Im trying to figure out what movie to see. Lion King or The Help.
I ran (my shins are killing me) down to the peanut field yesterday while I was at mommas and I love it down there. One day I hope to have enough money to buy it. I would love to have a log cabin there, with cows and horses. :)
My goals - order feathers and have a booth at the Claybank Jamboree this year!
Pass my test!
Start a second Job or get a better ONE! LOL :)
HOA stuff is getting a lot better~ I still have a few people that I cant seem to get any money out of. But Im not going to stress over it!
we have a meeting tomorrow, so im hoping it will go good!
Anyways I am about to get off work! :)
HOpefully it wont be so long next time!
~ALM~
I have not posted anything for September yet so I decided I would :)
Today was the first time I have turned the heater on in my car since last winter. Its only September this is crazy weather. Im still white. LOL I would like to have a tan, but it doesnt look like thats going to happen. I guess I'll have to go back to using tan towels again. ( walking around smelling like burnt skin) why? you didnt burn yourself!
anyways the weather is amazing today! Not one cloud in site. Perfect day for a pic nic.
Im hoping to have one of those this weekend while im in montgomery! :) Roger is taking me to Church of the Highlands and then I hope I hope we go to Shakespeare park! :)
He is taking me to dinner and a movie tonight~ Im so excited! I love date nights! Im trying to figure out what movie to see. Lion King or The Help.
I ran (my shins are killing me) down to the peanut field yesterday while I was at mommas and I love it down there. One day I hope to have enough money to buy it. I would love to have a log cabin there, with cows and horses. :)
My goals - order feathers and have a booth at the Claybank Jamboree this year!
Pass my test!
Start a second Job or get a better ONE! LOL :)
HOA stuff is getting a lot better~ I still have a few people that I cant seem to get any money out of. But Im not going to stress over it!
we have a meeting tomorrow, so im hoping it will go good!
Anyways I am about to get off work! :)
HOpefully it wont be so long next time!
~ALM~
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Just to hear
Sometimes it's nice to hear your needed.
Sometimes it's nice to hear your loved.
Sometimes it's nice to hear your beautiful.
Sometimes it's nice to hear you did a great job.
Sometimes it's nice to hear that your good at something.
We all need someone to give us upliftings, some need to gear it more than others.
When we strive to be good at something, it's nice to hear how you did.
When you have a passion for something the last thing you want to do is stop doing it.
It's hard for me to ever imagine myself not singing. Singing is the gift God has given me. I have had more heart ache and strife when it comes to me sharing my gift that God has given me!
I have given up and quit so many times. I refuse to keep doing that. That's what the devil wants me to do and I refuse to let him win!
~ALM~
Sometimes it's nice to hear your loved.
Sometimes it's nice to hear your beautiful.
Sometimes it's nice to hear you did a great job.
Sometimes it's nice to hear that your good at something.
We all need someone to give us upliftings, some need to gear it more than others.
When we strive to be good at something, it's nice to hear how you did.
When you have a passion for something the last thing you want to do is stop doing it.
It's hard for me to ever imagine myself not singing. Singing is the gift God has given me. I have had more heart ache and strife when it comes to me sharing my gift that God has given me!
I have given up and quit so many times. I refuse to keep doing that. That's what the devil wants me to do and I refuse to let him win!
~ALM~
Monday, August 15, 2011
Whats happenen
Its been a while since I have written a blog. I have gone to start one and sat in deep thought for oh.... about 5 minutes and then walk away. So instead of doing that today I decided to write. I'm sure I can find some interesting things to tell you. :)
I manage to stay up 24 hours for our all girls lock-in! That was very hard. But I loved it! To see God move in those girls lives that night was priceless, it left me speechless. Just to know the feeling of obeying God and watching him blow your mind it indescribable. he totally exceeded my expectations. I was so happy that it turned out the way it did.
I introduced our all girls group! Extravagant Grace They loved it. since then i have started a facebook page and i give them daily devotionals to go in and read. So far its been great. I cant wait to start planning something for them to do in September.
I have taken over the HOA dues of Brent wood Village ( Sigh) LOL why the sigh must you ask... well its just a difficult story. Lets just say I'm all game for changing things, and I already have made a huge change by just taking charge. the sigh is for the Ole lady in APT L. My goal is to win this battle with her. I actually have an attorney working on all of it for me. So I can only wait patiently.
Our youth group has alot of exciting things about to happen in the near future. We are starting 5th quarters after the football games. we have 2 concerts we will be involved in and tons and tons of rallies and camps. I'm so excited to see God work in our youth.
I'm just sad because I know it is getting to that time to where i might have to step out of band and step into my studying. :( I don't want to quit the band. but I gotta do what I gotta do in order to pass my test, because after all this is the last time for me to take this test!
Singing is my everything. so I'm hoping that God will work something out so that i can still sing! :)
Roger and I are great! He just bought me an iPhone and put me on his plan! ( so I'm stuck with him for 2 years now LOL) I have learned a lot about relationships and love since we have started dating. God has opened my eyes to a lot. and he is changing me on some different areas that needed to be worked on! But yes about Roger! I love him and he is GREAT!
Work is going good for now. I'm still looking for a 2nd job or a totally new job. Because I do not want to move back home, or rent my house or get a roommate!!! I have to find something that pays more. But until I pass my test or take my test, I'm just going to try my hardest to work 40 hours ( if the boss will let me) and then try to do some stuff on the side. I have already gotten rid of one bill, and tomorrow i plan to cut off my cable and Internet. ( but I know that it will work out) I'm not going to stress anymore. I know that God will help me.
Haley turned 16! I cant believe it! She is growing up so fast. But I can honestly say I'm proud of her and the woman she has become. :) She still has a lot to learn, but it could always be worse.
Roger and I are more than likely going to see his momma this weekend at the beach. Of course the nerves are already kicking in just thinking about it. Ahhh but I'm ready to get away and spend some time with my cutie of a boyfriend.
So anyways... I have nothing left to do at work and its only 10:20 :( ughhhhhh
My friend T-mac is leaving for ministry school in a couple weeks. I went to hear him preach last night. He did very well. I can wait to see what he is like when he comes back in 2 years :P
okay well I'm going to go find something to do. :)
~ALM~
I manage to stay up 24 hours for our all girls lock-in! That was very hard. But I loved it! To see God move in those girls lives that night was priceless, it left me speechless. Just to know the feeling of obeying God and watching him blow your mind it indescribable. he totally exceeded my expectations. I was so happy that it turned out the way it did.
I introduced our all girls group! Extravagant Grace They loved it. since then i have started a facebook page and i give them daily devotionals to go in and read. So far its been great. I cant wait to start planning something for them to do in September.
I have taken over the HOA dues of Brent wood Village ( Sigh) LOL why the sigh must you ask... well its just a difficult story. Lets just say I'm all game for changing things, and I already have made a huge change by just taking charge. the sigh is for the Ole lady in APT L. My goal is to win this battle with her. I actually have an attorney working on all of it for me. So I can only wait patiently.
Our youth group has alot of exciting things about to happen in the near future. We are starting 5th quarters after the football games. we have 2 concerts we will be involved in and tons and tons of rallies and camps. I'm so excited to see God work in our youth.
I'm just sad because I know it is getting to that time to where i might have to step out of band and step into my studying. :( I don't want to quit the band. but I gotta do what I gotta do in order to pass my test, because after all this is the last time for me to take this test!
Singing is my everything. so I'm hoping that God will work something out so that i can still sing! :)
Roger and I are great! He just bought me an iPhone and put me on his plan! ( so I'm stuck with him for 2 years now LOL) I have learned a lot about relationships and love since we have started dating. God has opened my eyes to a lot. and he is changing me on some different areas that needed to be worked on! But yes about Roger! I love him and he is GREAT!
Work is going good for now. I'm still looking for a 2nd job or a totally new job. Because I do not want to move back home, or rent my house or get a roommate!!! I have to find something that pays more. But until I pass my test or take my test, I'm just going to try my hardest to work 40 hours ( if the boss will let me) and then try to do some stuff on the side. I have already gotten rid of one bill, and tomorrow i plan to cut off my cable and Internet. ( but I know that it will work out) I'm not going to stress anymore. I know that God will help me.
Haley turned 16! I cant believe it! She is growing up so fast. But I can honestly say I'm proud of her and the woman she has become. :) She still has a lot to learn, but it could always be worse.
Roger and I are more than likely going to see his momma this weekend at the beach. Of course the nerves are already kicking in just thinking about it. Ahhh but I'm ready to get away and spend some time with my cutie of a boyfriend.
So anyways... I have nothing left to do at work and its only 10:20 :( ughhhhhh
My friend T-mac is leaving for ministry school in a couple weeks. I went to hear him preach last night. He did very well. I can wait to see what he is like when he comes back in 2 years :P
okay well I'm going to go find something to do. :)
~ALM~
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Last Day
Well guys today is the last day of my fast. (YAY) I'm so ready to get back into the world of facebook. I never realized how much it consumed my life until this past week. It really was a good thing that I let it go to spend time with God, I might need to start doing that more often.
This morning I opened my pop tart to only find ONE in there not TWO! :(
sorry that was a lil ADD moment.
I don't really know how to type what all has happened on this fast, but I can say that I feel a lot closer to God and I feel like my walk has gotten deeper. I was show and told a few things that I needed to hear as far as my calling. I am still praying about going off to ministry school. But I really feel like God is calling me to be here right now to start Extravagant Grace for the girls. I'm so excited to get this going. I have dreamed about it and God has shown me different things about whats going to happen. And I hope I make all the right decisions so that they will happen.
Sunday we had another amazing service. I love it when we have a Holy Ghost service. :) Pastor Scott prayed over me, and after going back and listening to it. I realized that I need to stop wanting to sing, because i already am. I know it may not be where I want to sing, or how I pictured it, but your dream has to start somewhere, be happy with what you have now, and be humble and God will finish it.
I am still not finished with reading my book, but I can tell you it is full of sticky notes. So I'm sure that blog will be long long long but it will be life changing. because i know this book has changed mine. :)
I have noticed that if you obey God and what he tells you to do, you get set on fire! I mean a holy ghost fire that no one can break off of you! I have felt like this all week! I love it. I just want to be in his presence all the time. :)
On a side note, I made my first fondant cake. :) Its very cute! well it was, its all gone now. :) It was a practice cake for this weekend, this Saturday i have to make a 4 layer cake for jamasha's moms bridal shower. :) I'm so excited to try something new. :)
I am seriously thinking about starting my own lil business out of my house. :) I love to bake. :)
And no i haven't forgotten about massage school, its just on the back burner right now. I have up until August 16th before I have to reapply. :( But..... God willing, I will pass.that would be wonderful! :)
another important thing that has happened. I took over the HOAs of brentwood townhomes. (where I live) This is a huge task to take on, but I'm fine with it. Except for the crazy lady on the end, who has already started placing letters in my mailbox. (god give me patients) I hope that I can make brentwood a nicer place to live! :)
Anyways I think that's all for now! I'm super sleepy today. I was hoping to go home to lunch and take a nap, but... I have lunch with my nan and pop.
whelp have a great day!
~aLM~
This morning I opened my pop tart to only find ONE in there not TWO! :(
sorry that was a lil ADD moment.
I don't really know how to type what all has happened on this fast, but I can say that I feel a lot closer to God and I feel like my walk has gotten deeper. I was show and told a few things that I needed to hear as far as my calling. I am still praying about going off to ministry school. But I really feel like God is calling me to be here right now to start Extravagant Grace for the girls. I'm so excited to get this going. I have dreamed about it and God has shown me different things about whats going to happen. And I hope I make all the right decisions so that they will happen.
Sunday we had another amazing service. I love it when we have a Holy Ghost service. :) Pastor Scott prayed over me, and after going back and listening to it. I realized that I need to stop wanting to sing, because i already am. I know it may not be where I want to sing, or how I pictured it, but your dream has to start somewhere, be happy with what you have now, and be humble and God will finish it.
I am still not finished with reading my book, but I can tell you it is full of sticky notes. So I'm sure that blog will be long long long but it will be life changing. because i know this book has changed mine. :)
I have noticed that if you obey God and what he tells you to do, you get set on fire! I mean a holy ghost fire that no one can break off of you! I have felt like this all week! I love it. I just want to be in his presence all the time. :)
On a side note, I made my first fondant cake. :) Its very cute! well it was, its all gone now. :) It was a practice cake for this weekend, this Saturday i have to make a 4 layer cake for jamasha's moms bridal shower. :) I'm so excited to try something new. :)
I am seriously thinking about starting my own lil business out of my house. :) I love to bake. :)
And no i haven't forgotten about massage school, its just on the back burner right now. I have up until August 16th before I have to reapply. :( But..... God willing, I will pass.that would be wonderful! :)
another important thing that has happened. I took over the HOAs of brentwood townhomes. (where I live) This is a huge task to take on, but I'm fine with it. Except for the crazy lady on the end, who has already started placing letters in my mailbox. (god give me patients) I hope that I can make brentwood a nicer place to live! :)
Anyways I think that's all for now! I'm super sleepy today. I was hoping to go home to lunch and take a nap, but... I have lunch with my nan and pop.
whelp have a great day!
~aLM~
Monday, July 25, 2011
So far, So good
So this makes day 4 of fasting. It has been difficult not knowing whats going on in the life of facebook. But it has also been a really good weekend. God really set me on fire. Which is something that needed to happen. :) I needed a refreshing.
Friday night I went to the Youth Praise Concert at Ridgecrest . It was a lot of fun. the kids were about like our kids were in our youth group. Quite and not excited. lol
But there were a few that were just so radical for Jesus, and that made me happy.
I got to see the Chris Stephens Project and they were amazing! I really liked them! I hope to one day get them to perform at our church.
I was so excited that I couldn't go to sleep. I just laid there until like 2 in the morning.
Saturday I got to spend the day with my best friend Jamasha! Masha Pasha! :) We went out and bought all the stuff I needed to start making my cakes! :) Which is pretty exciting by the way, I'll tell you more about that in a minute. So anyways while we were in Michael's we found all kinds of stuff for our youth group. :) Especially GLOW STICKS! This Wednesday we are having GLOW in the DARK worship! :)
then we went and ate at Momma Goldberg's, which that was my first time, and it was so good. :) After that we went to walmart and got the rest of the stuff, and went home to bake away the afternoon. :) My house smelt so good that Hunter and Kirsten had to come over and eat a cupcake ;) Yummy. Which it was very nice to sit and talk with my new neighbors.
So after we got done with the cake, which by the way turned out great for my first fondant cake! I was so proud. We went to Jamashas house so her mom could try it to see if she like it. and she did! She couldn't believe what a gift I had. Which made me feel good. She told me I needed to advertise this at the church. I'm still in shock that she thought that much of it. :) I'm excited to make her BIG cake this weekend. It has to feed anywhere from 20 to 52 people. LOL that's a big difference! But it will be fun! I can wait!
Speaking of Cakes
I love Cakes, I love baking, and I love cake shows.
So I want to start doing this as a side thing. I could make some money off of doing this. I want to start taking the class in Dothan at Michael's in August, but I'm not sure if ill be able to. I hope that within the next few months ill be able to do that. I have everything on my Christmas list picked out already! :)
So after Saturday comes Sunday.......
Yesterday at church was amazing. The last 2 Sundays have not been what you call your regular church service.
We've had a holy ghost service these last 2 Sundays, and I hope they continue. It was so awesome.
So this brings me back to my fasting. You fast because you want to God to give you direction, well yesterday God spoke through Bishop and he said. Your past is no more, it can no longer hold you down, go do what you are called to do, do what you are called to do. WOW yeah I thought that was amazing.
Where how or When is the question now. LOL
As I continue to fast the rest of this week that is my prayer. Where, How, or When?
Last night I was trying to talk to Roger about it all, but it hard to explain to someone whats been laid on your heart in a way they will understand, without taking you the wrong way.
I have 4 more months before I take my massage therapy test, this is my last chance to take the test, and I'm going to take it and get it all behind me, pass or fail, i need to get it off my chest. After that it will then be around December, So then I will be ready to start the NEW year off right. Whether I go to school locally or far off, I have to do something. :)
I have been reading the book we got from forward, and it is amazing. its about dreams. taking hold of your dreams. I really like it. Ive actually been studying it more than reading, I'm hoping to finish it this week and then i will write about it here in my blog.
anyways I'm going to get back to work now.
~ALM~
Friday night I went to the Youth Praise Concert at Ridgecrest . It was a lot of fun. the kids were about like our kids were in our youth group. Quite and not excited. lol
But there were a few that were just so radical for Jesus, and that made me happy.
I got to see the Chris Stephens Project and they were amazing! I really liked them! I hope to one day get them to perform at our church.
I was so excited that I couldn't go to sleep. I just laid there until like 2 in the morning.
Saturday I got to spend the day with my best friend Jamasha! Masha Pasha! :) We went out and bought all the stuff I needed to start making my cakes! :) Which is pretty exciting by the way, I'll tell you more about that in a minute. So anyways while we were in Michael's we found all kinds of stuff for our youth group. :) Especially GLOW STICKS! This Wednesday we are having GLOW in the DARK worship! :)
then we went and ate at Momma Goldberg's, which that was my first time, and it was so good. :) After that we went to walmart and got the rest of the stuff, and went home to bake away the afternoon. :) My house smelt so good that Hunter and Kirsten had to come over and eat a cupcake ;) Yummy. Which it was very nice to sit and talk with my new neighbors.
So after we got done with the cake, which by the way turned out great for my first fondant cake! I was so proud. We went to Jamashas house so her mom could try it to see if she like it. and she did! She couldn't believe what a gift I had. Which made me feel good. She told me I needed to advertise this at the church. I'm still in shock that she thought that much of it. :) I'm excited to make her BIG cake this weekend. It has to feed anywhere from 20 to 52 people. LOL that's a big difference! But it will be fun! I can wait!
Speaking of Cakes
I love Cakes, I love baking, and I love cake shows.
So I want to start doing this as a side thing. I could make some money off of doing this. I want to start taking the class in Dothan at Michael's in August, but I'm not sure if ill be able to. I hope that within the next few months ill be able to do that. I have everything on my Christmas list picked out already! :)
So after Saturday comes Sunday.......
Yesterday at church was amazing. The last 2 Sundays have not been what you call your regular church service.
We've had a holy ghost service these last 2 Sundays, and I hope they continue. It was so awesome.
So this brings me back to my fasting. You fast because you want to God to give you direction, well yesterday God spoke through Bishop and he said. Your past is no more, it can no longer hold you down, go do what you are called to do, do what you are called to do. WOW yeah I thought that was amazing.
Where how or When is the question now. LOL
As I continue to fast the rest of this week that is my prayer. Where, How, or When?
Last night I was trying to talk to Roger about it all, but it hard to explain to someone whats been laid on your heart in a way they will understand, without taking you the wrong way.
I have 4 more months before I take my massage therapy test, this is my last chance to take the test, and I'm going to take it and get it all behind me, pass or fail, i need to get it off my chest. After that it will then be around December, So then I will be ready to start the NEW year off right. Whether I go to school locally or far off, I have to do something. :)
I have been reading the book we got from forward, and it is amazing. its about dreams. taking hold of your dreams. I really like it. Ive actually been studying it more than reading, I'm hoping to finish it this week and then i will write about it here in my blog.
anyways I'm going to get back to work now.
~ALM~
Friday, July 22, 2011
Fasting Day 1
Good Morning
Some of you are probably wondering why I am fasting. Well you fast when you want answers, when you want God to reveal things to you.
So Last night when I was talking to a dear friend of mine. Well I got a rude awaking. Simply because he pointed out some very good points about my life. Nothing that I didn't know already.The fact is, What am I going to do about it? I'm I just going to let it go? And move on like God has never given me a calling?
My answer is NO!
That is why I am fasting. I am going to fast for 1 week. What am I fasting do you ask? Well my biggest addiction! Facebook! I know some ppl say well if your going to fast then you need to fast everything. Well for me that's not true. I need to fast whatever it is that is distracting me from spending time with God. and well 95% of my time is on facebook. I know that it is very sad, but its true.
So starting today, well actually last night around 11:30 No more facebook for a week. I took it as far as deleting the app off my phone. ( wow serious business)
So far this morning it has been very hard not to see whats going on. But instead I read my morning devotional. One of them anyway, I have found a lot devotionals to keep me busy.
If your wondering what answer I am looking for, well its about ministry school. How many opportunities have a passed up. Too many, and God isn't going to wait on me forever. If you would have asked me before 9:30 last night what i thought about leaving for ministry school, I would have been like well its impossible.
Honestly, I have a house, I have a job, I have a relationship, I have all my family here, I sing at church.
I could sit here and name a thousand reasons not to go to ministry school, but in the end that desire that God placed in my heart long ago will continue to surface, and i will walk around for the rest of my life with an emptiness because something is missing, I will walk around with the (what ifs)
I have no clue why God wants me to go to ministry school.
I'm not even sure if I still have a chance to get into these schools again.
I look at my life and my past, since God reveled that he wanted me to go to school..... Its hasn't been a fairytale, I can honestly say that. I went to school for something that I cant even pass the state boards, Why? (it wasn't Gods plans) God doesn't care how much you spent or how much time it took, if its not his will, it will NEVER work.
I look at me and my church. Am I happy? not really, I mean I love my church, but something is always going on.
Last night, I couldn't go to sleep, I starred into the mirror for 30 mins it seemed like just asking God what do u want from me!
I get this sick feeling over me when I think about what all would happen if i left. Its hard to swallow.
whats going to happen with me and Roger if I leave?
then I think, well we could get married and then go to hillsong, they do give a discount for married couples. :)
So my prayer is this...
God reveal what it is you have called me to do, Tell me where you want me to go, if its ministry school, tell me where and how I'm going to get there.
If its not going to ministry school, then tell me what I am supposed to be doing here.
As I fast this next week, I would appreciate the prayers. Only God has the answer, But i don't want to miss my opportunity on something that God has for me.
Its hard to wrap my brain around the fact that he wants to use me!
I am sure I will be posting later on.
Blessings
Anna
Some of you are probably wondering why I am fasting. Well you fast when you want answers, when you want God to reveal things to you.
So Last night when I was talking to a dear friend of mine. Well I got a rude awaking. Simply because he pointed out some very good points about my life. Nothing that I didn't know already.The fact is, What am I going to do about it? I'm I just going to let it go? And move on like God has never given me a calling?
My answer is NO!
That is why I am fasting. I am going to fast for 1 week. What am I fasting do you ask? Well my biggest addiction! Facebook! I know some ppl say well if your going to fast then you need to fast everything. Well for me that's not true. I need to fast whatever it is that is distracting me from spending time with God. and well 95% of my time is on facebook. I know that it is very sad, but its true.
So starting today, well actually last night around 11:30 No more facebook for a week. I took it as far as deleting the app off my phone. ( wow serious business)
So far this morning it has been very hard not to see whats going on. But instead I read my morning devotional. One of them anyway, I have found a lot devotionals to keep me busy.
If your wondering what answer I am looking for, well its about ministry school. How many opportunities have a passed up. Too many, and God isn't going to wait on me forever. If you would have asked me before 9:30 last night what i thought about leaving for ministry school, I would have been like well its impossible.
Honestly, I have a house, I have a job, I have a relationship, I have all my family here, I sing at church.
I could sit here and name a thousand reasons not to go to ministry school, but in the end that desire that God placed in my heart long ago will continue to surface, and i will walk around for the rest of my life with an emptiness because something is missing, I will walk around with the (what ifs)
I have no clue why God wants me to go to ministry school.
I'm not even sure if I still have a chance to get into these schools again.
I look at my life and my past, since God reveled that he wanted me to go to school..... Its hasn't been a fairytale, I can honestly say that. I went to school for something that I cant even pass the state boards, Why? (it wasn't Gods plans) God doesn't care how much you spent or how much time it took, if its not his will, it will NEVER work.
I look at me and my church. Am I happy? not really, I mean I love my church, but something is always going on.
Last night, I couldn't go to sleep, I starred into the mirror for 30 mins it seemed like just asking God what do u want from me!
I get this sick feeling over me when I think about what all would happen if i left. Its hard to swallow.
whats going to happen with me and Roger if I leave?
then I think, well we could get married and then go to hillsong, they do give a discount for married couples. :)
So my prayer is this...
God reveal what it is you have called me to do, Tell me where you want me to go, if its ministry school, tell me where and how I'm going to get there.
If its not going to ministry school, then tell me what I am supposed to be doing here.
As I fast this next week, I would appreciate the prayers. Only God has the answer, But i don't want to miss my opportunity on something that God has for me.
Its hard to wrap my brain around the fact that he wants to use me!
I am sure I will be posting later on.
Blessings
Anna
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Should have never been invented!
Wow I don't even know where to begin with this.
Cursing, Drinking, hypocriticism, lying, backstabbing, fake people.
Now that I got that out. Maybe now you will know where I'm going with this.
I have been in church my whole life! I was saved at age 7 ( I believe)
never in my whole life until the last 5 years have I ever experienced so much heart ache from church. Not just one church either. Because I have left and tried to start fresh, but the Lord knocked me down on that. That experience was just WOW.. not going there.
Have you ever had a desire or a passion to do something so bad and its like no one even notices you. and then you see someone up there doing it, who is one person at church, but then another person outside of church. its very hurtful, especially when you are the one who is actually trying to do right!
I do not think that someone that is open on facebook or twitter about their partying or language should be able to represent a church or be able to stand on a stage and minister.
This right here is a prime example of why ppl do not come to church. They get hurt and think all churches are this way. now I will also say this. The more ppl you know and the more involved you get into a church, you find out a bunch of CRAP, and it distracts you from becoming closer to God, because you will find yourself thinking about what that person did the night before or what they are going to be doing after service.. it totally throws you off.
we are not supposed to be teaching ppl how easy it is to get away with sin, we are supposed to be teaching them about love and serving, and living like Christ did.
have you ever read in the bible about Jesus partying the night before he went out into the streets to spread the word? ummmm no!
And maybe this is what happens when you are raised in the bible belt, but come on ppl its preached to you all the time about the sins of everyday life and how we are to stay away.
And no I'm not perfect, we all slip and fall, but at least I am trying and I'm no longer struggling with half the stuff I once was.
someone once told me that I'd be surprised if I knew half of what these ppl were going through, and you know what I think. I don't want to know!!!! don't spread the gossip about someone!!!! don't make it facebook or twitter announced what you do especially if you are in ministry GAH ppl come on!!!!!
I have been in one BIG funk lately and I think its because I am so burned out on how things are going around my town and in my church and in my life!
I am ready for a change, and God is the only one who can give me the kind of change I need!
I hope this blog has spoke to someone, and maybe it will convict them!
if not your sin will find you out! There is no gray in church, its just black and white. You will be found out, God does not like Luke warm ppl, it says in the bible he will spit you out!
you will get spit out!
Cursing, Drinking, hypocriticism, lying, backstabbing, fake people.
Now that I got that out. Maybe now you will know where I'm going with this.
I have been in church my whole life! I was saved at age 7 ( I believe)
never in my whole life until the last 5 years have I ever experienced so much heart ache from church. Not just one church either. Because I have left and tried to start fresh, but the Lord knocked me down on that. That experience was just WOW.. not going there.
Have you ever had a desire or a passion to do something so bad and its like no one even notices you. and then you see someone up there doing it, who is one person at church, but then another person outside of church. its very hurtful, especially when you are the one who is actually trying to do right!
I do not think that someone that is open on facebook or twitter about their partying or language should be able to represent a church or be able to stand on a stage and minister.
This right here is a prime example of why ppl do not come to church. They get hurt and think all churches are this way. now I will also say this. The more ppl you know and the more involved you get into a church, you find out a bunch of CRAP, and it distracts you from becoming closer to God, because you will find yourself thinking about what that person did the night before or what they are going to be doing after service.. it totally throws you off.
we are not supposed to be teaching ppl how easy it is to get away with sin, we are supposed to be teaching them about love and serving, and living like Christ did.
have you ever read in the bible about Jesus partying the night before he went out into the streets to spread the word? ummmm no!
And maybe this is what happens when you are raised in the bible belt, but come on ppl its preached to you all the time about the sins of everyday life and how we are to stay away.
And no I'm not perfect, we all slip and fall, but at least I am trying and I'm no longer struggling with half the stuff I once was.
someone once told me that I'd be surprised if I knew half of what these ppl were going through, and you know what I think. I don't want to know!!!! don't spread the gossip about someone!!!! don't make it facebook or twitter announced what you do especially if you are in ministry GAH ppl come on!!!!!
I have been in one BIG funk lately and I think its because I am so burned out on how things are going around my town and in my church and in my life!
I am ready for a change, and God is the only one who can give me the kind of change I need!
I hope this blog has spoke to someone, and maybe it will convict them!
if not your sin will find you out! There is no gray in church, its just black and white. You will be found out, God does not like Luke warm ppl, it says in the bible he will spit you out!
you will get spit out!
Monday, July 18, 2011
My World
A lot has been going on these last couple weeks. It seems like I'm busy busy busy all the time.
I need a vacation, and a vacation before October.That's when I leave for my 10 day cruise! woohooo I cannot wait! even though I get so sea sick and have to stay drugged up on Dramamine, its totally worth traveling the world to see all of Gods wonderful creations!
The girls lock - in has been approved and now i am working on getting all the final details done. I have to build 3 frames ( thank goodness I made an A+ in AG shop)
Its going to be awesome!
The name for the lock - in is Live Laugh Love
and our girls group name is going to be extravagant grace! I love it and I can wait to announce it to the girls the night of the lock - in . I think they will be so excited to have a group just for girls. I have a lot of plans for this group! I'm going to make a fb group and post daily women's devotionals.
I'm so excited! God has laid this on my heart for quite sometime. Now its time for me to get to working on it!
Speaking of God laying stuff on my heart. ministry school has once again popped up to the surface.
I do not want to move away right now. I know that's what has stopped me all the times before.
I have been looking up online schools for ministry as well. I am not sure what to do about this desire in my heart. I often think about the time I got accepted into Hill Song in Australia! Wow my life would be totally different right now! And then when I got accepted into Rehma! ha ha oh lord my life for sure would have been changed. God Thank you for working things out for your will, and not mine!
I am not sure whats going to happen in my future, but I do know that God can use me here just as well as anywhere else. And I also know that you don't have to go to ministry school in order for God to use you in a church, My time will come. I know it will. Or I wouldn't see it in my dreams every night!
I have been itching to go get more pictures done. I'm thinking of going to Shakespeare park on one Saturday. But maybe one day ill be getting engagement pictures done there! Oops did I say that too soon!
I have been thinking about photography for myself also. I'm just keeping an open mind on a lot of different things I could do, if for some reason I don't pass my test. ( that dang test!!!!)
I will start traveling again to Montgomery with in the next couple weeks. I'm scared to do this because, when I'm put on the spot my nerves kick in and my brain is lost somewhere in left field!
But only God knows what he wants me to do and right now I feel like I'm doing just that. Singing in the youth is crazy awesome i love it. and I have also thought about talking to the worship minister in the main sanctuary about singing on Sundays.
I also want to add this in my blog. Best friends, this topic has been on my heart a lot lately, well ever since Caia and I have started having problems. We both have not been the same for a while now. Things happen and ppl are in your life for certain seasons. Now I have been the bigger person and tried to ignore certain things, but if she cant move on from certain things, then its going to be impossible for us to work things out. So I have decided to let her do her thing and when she is ready to move on from her past and realize that everyone makes mistakes then we can talk and try to hang out again, but for now its best for me to just let her be. Because I have to get things lined up in my life in order for things to fall into the right places. just like Bishops service yesterday about the hour glass. What a perfect example.
I needed that service yesterday! It was so fulfilling. I cannot wait for practice and service this week in the youth. me and jamasha were talking yesterday and we feel and explosion coming to our youth group. And if its not in them then its in me and ill take that too!
God is truly amazing and I cannot wait to see what happens in the next few months.
~ALM~
I need a vacation, and a vacation before October.That's when I leave for my 10 day cruise! woohooo I cannot wait! even though I get so sea sick and have to stay drugged up on Dramamine, its totally worth traveling the world to see all of Gods wonderful creations!
The girls lock - in has been approved and now i am working on getting all the final details done. I have to build 3 frames ( thank goodness I made an A+ in AG shop)
Its going to be awesome!
The name for the lock - in is Live Laugh Love
and our girls group name is going to be extravagant grace! I love it and I can wait to announce it to the girls the night of the lock - in . I think they will be so excited to have a group just for girls. I have a lot of plans for this group! I'm going to make a fb group and post daily women's devotionals.
I'm so excited! God has laid this on my heart for quite sometime. Now its time for me to get to working on it!
Speaking of God laying stuff on my heart. ministry school has once again popped up to the surface.
I do not want to move away right now. I know that's what has stopped me all the times before.
I have been looking up online schools for ministry as well. I am not sure what to do about this desire in my heart. I often think about the time I got accepted into Hill Song in Australia! Wow my life would be totally different right now! And then when I got accepted into Rehma! ha ha oh lord my life for sure would have been changed. God Thank you for working things out for your will, and not mine!
I am not sure whats going to happen in my future, but I do know that God can use me here just as well as anywhere else. And I also know that you don't have to go to ministry school in order for God to use you in a church, My time will come. I know it will. Or I wouldn't see it in my dreams every night!
I have been itching to go get more pictures done. I'm thinking of going to Shakespeare park on one Saturday. But maybe one day ill be getting engagement pictures done there! Oops did I say that too soon!
I have been thinking about photography for myself also. I'm just keeping an open mind on a lot of different things I could do, if for some reason I don't pass my test. ( that dang test!!!!)
I will start traveling again to Montgomery with in the next couple weeks. I'm scared to do this because, when I'm put on the spot my nerves kick in and my brain is lost somewhere in left field!
But only God knows what he wants me to do and right now I feel like I'm doing just that. Singing in the youth is crazy awesome i love it. and I have also thought about talking to the worship minister in the main sanctuary about singing on Sundays.
I also want to add this in my blog. Best friends, this topic has been on my heart a lot lately, well ever since Caia and I have started having problems. We both have not been the same for a while now. Things happen and ppl are in your life for certain seasons. Now I have been the bigger person and tried to ignore certain things, but if she cant move on from certain things, then its going to be impossible for us to work things out. So I have decided to let her do her thing and when she is ready to move on from her past and realize that everyone makes mistakes then we can talk and try to hang out again, but for now its best for me to just let her be. Because I have to get things lined up in my life in order for things to fall into the right places. just like Bishops service yesterday about the hour glass. What a perfect example.
I needed that service yesterday! It was so fulfilling. I cannot wait for practice and service this week in the youth. me and jamasha were talking yesterday and we feel and explosion coming to our youth group. And if its not in them then its in me and ill take that too!
God is truly amazing and I cannot wait to see what happens in the next few months.
~ALM~
Monday, July 11, 2011
Change
How many times will you let something take over your life?
Well I have had about enough of depression, sickness, and just CRAP always following me around like a black rain cloud.
I know God reins in my life, and He will continue to rein in my life FOREVER.
I had some very important one on one time with God this morning. I know my gifts that he has given me are too good to waste, or to be tossed to the side.
I finished my plans for the Extravagant Grace Lock- In
its amazing the things God gives you when you are actually listening. I pray that I will get all of this approved. Its been on my heart for quite sometime. and I am so proud of our crew coming together and putting action to our words.
One thing that I have to work on and this is the main thing God hit me with....
if you don't stay built up in him, and don't stay in his word. You will fall.
So I will get back to my devotionals, daily readings, and praying.
I have noticed alot of change in alot of areas in my life and walk with God, and they all have to get fixed now.
for one you cant have a relationship with out Gods blessings. And that's another thing that is on my heart. I want mine and Rogers relationship to last forever, I know we have to let God use us for what He wants us to do.
I know God has big plans for me. I hear it and feel it all the time.
Its heart breaking to think (what if I have already let Him -God down)
I know God is patient and Kind and has the heart of Grace and forgiveness ( AND 2nd CHANCES)
God isn't finished using me.
I am excited for tonight, we have our CREW meeting to turn in all our ideas for what we were assigned. Mine of course the LOCK-In
and I also cant wait to hear about the Band, I'm excited to hear about what they have planned for the BIG service in September.
We are finally going to learn some of the songs from forward2011. I think our group is very excited about that!
God nothing can keep me from your love! Thank you for your merciful heart!
Thank you for pulling me out of my mess again!
Well I have had about enough of depression, sickness, and just CRAP always following me around like a black rain cloud.
I know God reins in my life, and He will continue to rein in my life FOREVER.
I had some very important one on one time with God this morning. I know my gifts that he has given me are too good to waste, or to be tossed to the side.
I finished my plans for the Extravagant Grace Lock- In
its amazing the things God gives you when you are actually listening. I pray that I will get all of this approved. Its been on my heart for quite sometime. and I am so proud of our crew coming together and putting action to our words.
One thing that I have to work on and this is the main thing God hit me with....
if you don't stay built up in him, and don't stay in his word. You will fall.
So I will get back to my devotionals, daily readings, and praying.
I have noticed alot of change in alot of areas in my life and walk with God, and they all have to get fixed now.
for one you cant have a relationship with out Gods blessings. And that's another thing that is on my heart. I want mine and Rogers relationship to last forever, I know we have to let God use us for what He wants us to do.
I know God has big plans for me. I hear it and feel it all the time.
Its heart breaking to think (what if I have already let Him -God down)
I know God is patient and Kind and has the heart of Grace and forgiveness ( AND 2nd CHANCES)
God isn't finished using me.
I am excited for tonight, we have our CREW meeting to turn in all our ideas for what we were assigned. Mine of course the LOCK-In
and I also cant wait to hear about the Band, I'm excited to hear about what they have planned for the BIG service in September.
We are finally going to learn some of the songs from forward2011. I think our group is very excited about that!
God nothing can keep me from your love! Thank you for your merciful heart!
Thank you for pulling me out of my mess again!
Sunday, July 10, 2011
my weekend!
I must say that family gatherings with my family never end on a good note.
We all went to the beach for my moms birthday and of course jason and haley have to have it there way or no way. Which makes arguments very easy. Jason of course never listens. And when my mom isn't happy no one is happy. Its always something with my family. When im around them for more than like 3 hours my anger issues surface. I hate to leave my family ill or upset. And today I did. But it took them two hours to call and ask if I was ok. It just makes me feel like no one cares. They just care about themselves. Sometimes I ask myself if I will ever understand my screwed up family.
When one thing happens that is upsetting my whole world changes. My depression sinks in, I think that everyone is upset with me. I feel like its just me in my little house. And no one can hear me. Im tired of being this way. Im tired of always being stressed and worried and depressed. I don't want to go to back to counseling.
I want to be happy.
I met a girl singing on the pier and I thought to myself, what happened to pursuing my dreams, well life gets in the way! That's what happens!
Life sucks sometimes!
My life sucks!
Im 24 this shouldn't be my life!
Anyways im tired of talking about it!
Im going to bed
We all went to the beach for my moms birthday and of course jason and haley have to have it there way or no way. Which makes arguments very easy. Jason of course never listens. And when my mom isn't happy no one is happy. Its always something with my family. When im around them for more than like 3 hours my anger issues surface. I hate to leave my family ill or upset. And today I did. But it took them two hours to call and ask if I was ok. It just makes me feel like no one cares. They just care about themselves. Sometimes I ask myself if I will ever understand my screwed up family.
When one thing happens that is upsetting my whole world changes. My depression sinks in, I think that everyone is upset with me. I feel like its just me in my little house. And no one can hear me. Im tired of being this way. Im tired of always being stressed and worried and depressed. I don't want to go to back to counseling.
I want to be happy.
I met a girl singing on the pier and I thought to myself, what happened to pursuing my dreams, well life gets in the way! That's what happens!
Life sucks sometimes!
My life sucks!
Im 24 this shouldn't be my life!
Anyways im tired of talking about it!
Im going to bed
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Saturday, June 25, 2011
moving forward
As of now im heading to the last forward session of FORWARD11. So far it has been nothing but uplifting services. Our youth group REMIX is awesome this year. I have been truly blessed to have great girls in my room this year. (:
My number one prayer for this years forward11 conference is that our kids come back changed.
On a side note, I wish we could have stayed in a different hotel. Not a big fan of drugs and random guys walking around on the girls floor. The aweful smell of cigarettes and weed is not something I want to wake up to ever again. Lol
And now its time to catch you up since my last post.
Unfortunately I did not pass my test once again. I know I said I was through either pass or fail. But if you get another chance take it. So I have 1 more chance. I have until December. And during that time I plan on going up to school in Montgomery on my free weekends and studying with my teachers.
But anyways besides that everything is ok. Work is work.
Roger and I are great. He truly is amazing, I couldn't be happier.
But I will admit that I was tested so.hard on this trip. I felt like I couldn't pray or worship around Him which is really weird because I have never been that way around him. But finally whatever that was broke, so.im good now. Its such a great feeling to worship next to the one God has designed for you! (:
I can't wait to see where we are in a year! (: im so happy with him. He truly is the best! I could just eatum up!!! Lol
So another crazy moment that has happened on this trip. Brittany has not left my thought process and it seems like each speaker has spoke about loosing someone. And I would just cry right then and there.
Then I saw all these kids worshipping and I remembered how that was brittanys favorite part of camp is when we all ran to the front. And I was like I bet this is all brittany is doing in heaven!! How awesome. And then I couldn't help but think about what if she was here! And I just prayed for her and her families. Then when I opened my eyes all I saw were our BRIGHT YELLOW SHIRTS. So brittany! Thank you for smiling down on me! I love you and miss you!
So now im walking into the arena to save seats. Expecting God to do amazing things!
I love you all
~ALM~
My number one prayer for this years forward11 conference is that our kids come back changed.
On a side note, I wish we could have stayed in a different hotel. Not a big fan of drugs and random guys walking around on the girls floor. The aweful smell of cigarettes and weed is not something I want to wake up to ever again. Lol
And now its time to catch you up since my last post.
Unfortunately I did not pass my test once again. I know I said I was through either pass or fail. But if you get another chance take it. So I have 1 more chance. I have until December. And during that time I plan on going up to school in Montgomery on my free weekends and studying with my teachers.
But anyways besides that everything is ok. Work is work.
Roger and I are great. He truly is amazing, I couldn't be happier.
But I will admit that I was tested so.hard on this trip. I felt like I couldn't pray or worship around Him which is really weird because I have never been that way around him. But finally whatever that was broke, so.im good now. Its such a great feeling to worship next to the one God has designed for you! (:
I can't wait to see where we are in a year! (: im so happy with him. He truly is the best! I could just eatum up!!! Lol
So another crazy moment that has happened on this trip. Brittany has not left my thought process and it seems like each speaker has spoke about loosing someone. And I would just cry right then and there.
Then I saw all these kids worshipping and I remembered how that was brittanys favorite part of camp is when we all ran to the front. And I was like I bet this is all brittany is doing in heaven!! How awesome. And then I couldn't help but think about what if she was here! And I just prayed for her and her families. Then when I opened my eyes all I saw were our BRIGHT YELLOW SHIRTS. So brittany! Thank you for smiling down on me! I love you and miss you!
So now im walking into the arena to save seats. Expecting God to do amazing things!
I love you all
~ALM~
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Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Study Study Study
As it gets closer to my test the days seem to go by way to fast. I want the to go by slow, so I can study as much as possible.
Today is Wednesday, this is my last day to study, because Im not supposed to study the day before the test.
Just sitting here thinking about it makes me go into panic mode.
On Sunday it seemed like I got hit so hard with everything. Church was awesome. It was one of those "Heaven on Earth" services. The part that was hardest, was when I saw Mrs. Kim with Pastor Anessa. This was her first church service since the passing of Brittany and Shep. I couldnt help but to weap the whole service. When service was over I went straight to her and hugged and loved on her for a while. Her heart seems so tender, and so brittle. But she had the strength to get up and come to church. Thats a big step, she is doing good. alot better than expected.
Sunday afternoon I had a bridal shower to go to and I felt so awkward the whole time. So I ended up leaving and I went to subway for supper and got home and I was sick the whole night :( I still pressed through and studied as much as I could.
These week I think I have study more than ever, kinda hard to say. But I have put in 3 to 4 hours each day. I just hope and pray it pays off.
I made up my mind on Sunday and I prayed to God that no matter what happens Friday with this test, that I am done! Pass or Fail. I will not take this test again.
I kept reminding myself of the scripture, for I know the plans I have for you! His plans may not be mine.
Im tired of stressing out of what im going to do with my future, or this test!
Roger has been a big help with helping me study! He actually doesnt make fun of me when I get something wrong, and he helps explain it to me. He truly is the best I have ever had! :) God sure made this one just for me! :)
So now speaking of studying, im ending this blog so I can go study on my lunch break!
~ALM~
Today is Wednesday, this is my last day to study, because Im not supposed to study the day before the test.
Just sitting here thinking about it makes me go into panic mode.
On Sunday it seemed like I got hit so hard with everything. Church was awesome. It was one of those "Heaven on Earth" services. The part that was hardest, was when I saw Mrs. Kim with Pastor Anessa. This was her first church service since the passing of Brittany and Shep. I couldnt help but to weap the whole service. When service was over I went straight to her and hugged and loved on her for a while. Her heart seems so tender, and so brittle. But she had the strength to get up and come to church. Thats a big step, she is doing good. alot better than expected.
Sunday afternoon I had a bridal shower to go to and I felt so awkward the whole time. So I ended up leaving and I went to subway for supper and got home and I was sick the whole night :( I still pressed through and studied as much as I could.
These week I think I have study more than ever, kinda hard to say. But I have put in 3 to 4 hours each day. I just hope and pray it pays off.
I made up my mind on Sunday and I prayed to God that no matter what happens Friday with this test, that I am done! Pass or Fail. I will not take this test again.
I kept reminding myself of the scripture, for I know the plans I have for you! His plans may not be mine.
Im tired of stressing out of what im going to do with my future, or this test!
Roger has been a big help with helping me study! He actually doesnt make fun of me when I get something wrong, and he helps explain it to me. He truly is the best I have ever had! :) God sure made this one just for me! :)
So now speaking of studying, im ending this blog so I can go study on my lunch break!
~ALM~
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Inside my bubble
So I just though I would catch you guys up on a few things.
Yesterday marked 3 months since Brittany and Baby Shep's accident. Its amazing how time goes by so quickly. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about them or their family. Brooke posted today on fb for the first time in a month. I can still hear the pain through her message. My thoughts and prayers go out to them daily. I know we will all get to see them again. I cant wait to see Brittany's Beautiful smile. and Shep's lil laugh. :)
I know they are constantly sending down love and comfort. And I pray they continue to do so. especially for the family.
Love you Britt and Shep!
My test is next Friday.....
Lets just say my heart drops in my stomach every time I say that. I feel that I could be more prepared, but I just don't have the time or the energy. I feel like I know a lot, So I'm just going to go in there with a positive attitude and Jesus on my side! I Pray I pass!
Roger and I are Wonderful! I couldn't be happier! He is such a wonderful man of God! :)
I don't think I have ever been this happy in my life.. its like everything is falling into place.
I was reading my journal the other night and all of my entries were sad love poems or love songs. One was a love prayer, and well I must say my prayer was answered! It pays off to obey God and to be patient! :)
I cant wait to see what the future holds for us! So much has already happened, I'm not sure if he realizes it or not, but I know that God has already started for mold us and shape us! :)
<3
I am back down to one job. lol
No more cleaning up after cats!!! thank god!
I haven't cleaned at the beach, because i have been studying so much for my test!
My best friend and I are so great! Caila is the best. We realized yesterday how close we really are. WE do everything alike! are boyfriends are even similar! LOL
anyways I love her!
moving on! I finally got my house clean and my flower beds redone! front and back!:) Roger bought me a water hose like i wanted! LOL he is the best! :)
I actually talked to my neighbor last night for a long time, we actually have a lot in common! he seems like a pretty cool guy! :) glad to know I have a great neighbor! :)
Anyways I better get back to work! :)
Oh P.S Im going to see Lady Antebellum Saturday!!! :)
~ALM~
Yesterday marked 3 months since Brittany and Baby Shep's accident. Its amazing how time goes by so quickly. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about them or their family. Brooke posted today on fb for the first time in a month. I can still hear the pain through her message. My thoughts and prayers go out to them daily. I know we will all get to see them again. I cant wait to see Brittany's Beautiful smile. and Shep's lil laugh. :)
I know they are constantly sending down love and comfort. And I pray they continue to do so. especially for the family.
Love you Britt and Shep!
My test is next Friday.....
Lets just say my heart drops in my stomach every time I say that. I feel that I could be more prepared, but I just don't have the time or the energy. I feel like I know a lot, So I'm just going to go in there with a positive attitude and Jesus on my side! I Pray I pass!
Roger and I are Wonderful! I couldn't be happier! He is such a wonderful man of God! :)
I don't think I have ever been this happy in my life.. its like everything is falling into place.
I was reading my journal the other night and all of my entries were sad love poems or love songs. One was a love prayer, and well I must say my prayer was answered! It pays off to obey God and to be patient! :)
I cant wait to see what the future holds for us! So much has already happened, I'm not sure if he realizes it or not, but I know that God has already started for mold us and shape us! :)
<3
I am back down to one job. lol
No more cleaning up after cats!!! thank god!
I haven't cleaned at the beach, because i have been studying so much for my test!
My best friend and I are so great! Caila is the best. We realized yesterday how close we really are. WE do everything alike! are boyfriends are even similar! LOL
anyways I love her!
moving on! I finally got my house clean and my flower beds redone! front and back!:) Roger bought me a water hose like i wanted! LOL he is the best! :)
I actually talked to my neighbor last night for a long time, we actually have a lot in common! he seems like a pretty cool guy! :) glad to know I have a great neighbor! :)
Anyways I better get back to work! :)
Oh P.S Im going to see Lady Antebellum Saturday!!! :)
~ALM~
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
and so the journey begins
Roger and I began dating on Sunday May 29, 2011
I believe this journey will be long lasting and very exciting!
Roger and I have alot in common especially when it comes to serving our Lord Jesus Christ. Its so awesome to be with someone who uplifts you everyday! The best thing is we hold each other accountable!
Roger plays the guitar and sings! :-)
That's how things got started. He started playing in the youth band! :-) I believe my heart is healing finally. Im so excited to see what God is going to do through us! :-)
Being patient and obeying God really does pay off! :-) Thank you Lord for blessing me with such a great man of God!
~ALM~
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Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Does love scare you?
I took this off of everystudent.com I was going to try and sum it up in my words, but its just best if you read it straight!
:)What is it about love that scares us?
Marshall Hodge wrote a book called Your Fear of Love. In it he says, "We long for moments of expressions of love, closeness and tenderness, but frequently, at the critical point, we often draw back. We are afraid of closeness. We are afraid of love." Later in the same book Hodge states, "The closer you come to somebody, the greater potential there is for pain." It is the fear of pain that often drives us away from finding true intimacy.I was giving a series of lectures at a university in southern Illinois. After one of the meetings, a woman came up to me and said, "I have to talk to you about my boyfriend problems." We sat down, and she began telling me her troubles. After a few moments, she made this statement: "I am now taking steps never to get hurt again." I said to her, "In other words, you are taking steps never to love again." She had thought I misunderstood, so she continued. "No, that's not what I am saying. I just don't want to get hurt anymore. I don't want pain in my life." I said, "That's right, you don't want love in your life." You see, there is no such thing as "painless love." The closer we come to somebody, the greater potential there is for pain.
I would estimate that you (and around 100 percent of the population) would say you have been hurt in a relationship before. The question is, how do you handle that hurt? In order to camouflage the pain, a lot of us give people what I call the "double-sign." We say to a person, "Look, I want you to come closer to me. I want to love and be loved . . . but wait a minute, I've been hurt before. No, I don't want to talk about these subjects. I don't want to hear those things." We build walls around our hearts to protect us from anyone on the outside getting in to hurt us. But that same wall which keeps people out, keeps us stuck inside. The result? Loneliness sets in and true intimacy and love become impossible.
What if you experienced love like this?
Love is more than emotions, and it is much more than a good feeling. But our society has taken what God has said about love, sex and intimacy and changed it into simply emotions and feelings. God describes love in great detail in the Bible, especially in the Book of First Corinthians, chapter 13. So that you catch the full weight of God's definition of love, let me present verses four through seven (1 Corinthians 13:4-7) to you this way. How much would it meet your needs if a person loved you as God says we should be loved:- if this person responded to you with patience, kindness, and was not envious of you?
- if this person was not boastful or prideful?
- how about if this person wasn't rude toward you or self-seeking or easily angered?
- what if this person didn't keep a record of your wrongs?
- how about if they refused to be deceitful, but always were truthful with you?
- what if this person protected you, trusted you, always hoped for your good, and persevered through conflicts with you?
To love this way, we need to feel loved.
For us to experience this kind of love in relationships we need to first experience God's love for us. You can't consistently demonstrate this kind of love toward someone if you've never experienced being loved in this way. God, who knows you, who knows everything about you, loves you perfectly.God tells us through the ancient prophet, Jeremiah, "I have loved you with an everlasting love; and I have drawn you unto Myself" (Jeremiah 31:3). So God's love for you is never going to change.
God loved us so much that He allowed for Jesus Christ to be crucified (an ancient form of execution) for our sins so that we might be made clean. We read in the Bible, "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believes in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life" (John 3:16). When we turn to God and accept His forgiveness, then we begin to experience His love.
God tells us, "If we confess our sin He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9). Not only does God forgive our sins, but He forgets them and cleanses us.
What is it like to be loved like this?
God continues to love us no matter what. Often, relationships end when something in them is altered, such as a damaging accident or the loss of financial position. But God's love is not based on our physical appearance or who or what we are.As you can see, God's view of love is totally different from what society tells us love is. Can you imagine a relationship with this kind of love? God simply tells us that His forgiveness and love is ours for the asking. It is His gift to us. But if we refuse the gift, we are the ones who cut ourselves off from finding true fulfillment, true intimacy and true purpose in life.
God's love provides the answer. All we have to do is respond in faith and commitment. The Bible says about Jesus: "That as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, even to those that believe on His name" (John 1:12). God sent His only Son, Jesus, to die in our place. But that is not where the story ends. Three days later, Jesus rose from the dead. As God, He is alive today and wants to put His love in your heart. Once you accept Him, you will be amazed at what He can do in your life and in your relationships.God's word tells us, "He who believes in the Son (Jesus Christ) has eternal life, but he who does not obey the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God abides on him" (John 3:36). What God wants for us is to have life, not only for today, but for eternity. If we choose to reject Him, then we have chosen sin's consequence which is death and eternal separation from Him.
What is the advantage of knowing God's love?
It is the reception of Jesus Christ, receiving Him into our lives and trusting in Him, that brings our lives into balance. Faith in God unleashes the forgiveness of God. No more hiding, and no more going our own way. He is right there with us. We have peace with Him. After we place our faith and dependence on Him, He takes up residence within our lives and we have intimacy with Him. His forgiveness is there to cleanse us from the deepest sin, the deepest self-centeredness, the deepest problem or struggle we ever had or will have.Throughout the Bible, God's attitude toward sex is very clear. God has reserved sex for marriage and marriage only. Not because He wants to make us miserable, but because He wants to protect our hearts. He wants to build a security base for us, so that when we enter into a marriage, its intimacy can be based upon the security of God's love and wisdom.
When we entrust ourselves to Jesus Christ, He gives us new love and new power day by day. This is where the intimacy we are looking for is satisfied. God gives us a love that will not quit, and will not stop with the growing years and the changing times. His love can bring two people together, with Him at the center of that union. In a dating relationship, as you grow together, not only spiritually, but socially, mentally and emotionally, you are able to have an honest, caring and intimate relationship which is fulfilling and exciting! And when the relationship comes along which culminates in marriage, the sexual union can only enhance the foundation that has been established.
What does it take to know God's love?
You can receive Christ right now by faith through prayer. Prayer is talking with God. God knows your heart and is not so concerned with your words as He is with the attitude of your heart. The following is a suggested prayer: "Lord Jesus, I need You. Thank You for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life and receive You as my Savior and Lord. Thank You for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Take control of my life and make me the kind of person You want me to be."Does this prayer express the desire of your heart? If it does, pray this prayer right now. Placing your faith in Christ will result in His coming into your life as He has promised. This will begin a relationship with Him that will grow more intimate as you come to know Him better. And with Him at its center, your life will take on a whole new dimension -- a spiritual one -- bringing more harmony and fulfillment to all of your relationships.
What is love? Knowing and experiencing God's love for you. Then you will be able to love others with God's love, which leads to a deeper level of real intimacy.
I hope these last two post have help you or someone in some way! They sure helped me alot.
Go to everystudent.com they have alot of stories and helpful things that is christian based! :)
Just remember you are not alone in the world! :)
There are thousands of ppl struggling with the same thing!
♪ ALM ♪
Men should be Stronger
Good Morning everyone,
I tried not to let this blog escape my memory. I have been quite busy lately, But I wanted to post this. This has a lot of meaning to me because I myself am in the search for "The One".
You have probably always heard the man is in charge of the house, he runs everything, and he is stronger.
Well this also takes a big part in the spiritual aspect of things too.
when looking for your soul mate, you want to make sure that he is stronger spiritually than you, because you need someone to uplift you and encourage you! You cannot have someone who is not equally yolked. Or not on the same page as you are. It will never work. If you are weak, you need someone strong. If you are both weak, you will struggle. If you are both strong then that's wonderful!
It says in Ephesians 5:22-33
Wives, submit yourselves to your own husband as you do to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the savior.
now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything.
25: Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself as a radiant church without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless.in the same way husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. he who loves his wife loves himself.
29: After all no one ever hated their own body, but they feed and care for their body, just as Christ does for the church." for the reason a man will leave his mother and be untied with his wife, and the two will become one flesh"
32: this is a profound mystery- but i am talking about Christ and the church.
33: however,each one of you also must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband.
Sorry that is a long passage but if i would have just put the scriptures, most of you wouldn't go and read it. :)
With all this that has been said. I would just like to say that from experience a relationship will not work if you or your significant other is living in sin. You both need to be pure and broken before the Lord allowing him to work in your lives. When looking for that soul mate, just remember God will bless it, if you obey him with everything.
If a guy/ girl tries to put moves on you before you are Even "together" you need to drop them like they are stinky trash! because that's all that it will amount to be, is STINKY TRASH! it will cause you to lose more and more of your spirit and your soul each time you "FALL IN LOVE" with someone you are giving them a piece of your heart. Its says God is a Jealous God! If you fall for all these ppl...do you have any love left for him (GOD) .
This brings me into another subject. About love, sex, and intimacy.I'm going to stop another post just simply because its too much to post into this one.
Please go and read it also! I hope that this has help someone in some way!
♪ ALM ♫
I tried not to let this blog escape my memory. I have been quite busy lately, But I wanted to post this. This has a lot of meaning to me because I myself am in the search for "The One".
You have probably always heard the man is in charge of the house, he runs everything, and he is stronger.
Well this also takes a big part in the spiritual aspect of things too.
when looking for your soul mate, you want to make sure that he is stronger spiritually than you, because you need someone to uplift you and encourage you! You cannot have someone who is not equally yolked. Or not on the same page as you are. It will never work. If you are weak, you need someone strong. If you are both weak, you will struggle. If you are both strong then that's wonderful!
It says in Ephesians 5:22-33
Wives, submit yourselves to your own husband as you do to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the savior.
now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything.
25: Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself as a radiant church without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless.in the same way husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. he who loves his wife loves himself.
29: After all no one ever hated their own body, but they feed and care for their body, just as Christ does for the church." for the reason a man will leave his mother and be untied with his wife, and the two will become one flesh"
32: this is a profound mystery- but i am talking about Christ and the church.
33: however,each one of you also must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband.
Sorry that is a long passage but if i would have just put the scriptures, most of you wouldn't go and read it. :)
With all this that has been said. I would just like to say that from experience a relationship will not work if you or your significant other is living in sin. You both need to be pure and broken before the Lord allowing him to work in your lives. When looking for that soul mate, just remember God will bless it, if you obey him with everything.
If a guy/ girl tries to put moves on you before you are Even "together" you need to drop them like they are stinky trash! because that's all that it will amount to be, is STINKY TRASH! it will cause you to lose more and more of your spirit and your soul each time you "FALL IN LOVE" with someone you are giving them a piece of your heart. Its says God is a Jealous God! If you fall for all these ppl...do you have any love left for him (GOD) .
This brings me into another subject. About love, sex, and intimacy.I'm going to stop another post just simply because its too much to post into this one.
Please go and read it also! I hope that this has help someone in some way!
♪ ALM ♫
Monday, May 16, 2011
My Birthday
MY BIRTHDAY WEEKEND IN ATLANTA
Most of you know that my Birthday was on the 13th of May. So its is bound to happen my Birthday will fall on a Friday at some point. Well this birthday was on Friday the 13th. What Joy. lol I usually dont leave the house on Friday the 13th, because of past memories. But...I thought, Hey this is my Birthday I have to do something. So thats what I did. I went to ATL and I had a great time.
This was my view from my hotel room. We stayed at the Hilton downtown. It was very nice.
I didnt spend to much time in the room except just to sleep. But it was pretty nice. I dont think it was worth $100.00 Bucks though. Especially the bon fire smell the whole time.
So moving on to the game. We played the Philies. We lost by one point 4-5 :( I was very sad.
But I was very entertained because we had a whole row of drunk guys behind us and then across from us was philies fans. So yeah you can imagine. alot of booo's and cussing but lots of laughs. :)
This was me after we got back to the hotel and I was so sad! lol
Most of you know that my Birthday was on the 13th of May. So its is bound to happen my Birthday will fall on a Friday at some point. Well this birthday was on Friday the 13th. What Joy. lol I usually dont leave the house on Friday the 13th, because of past memories. But...I thought, Hey this is my Birthday I have to do something. So thats what I did. I went to ATL and I had a great time.
This was my view from my hotel room. We stayed at the Hilton downtown. It was very nice.
I didnt spend to much time in the room except just to sleep. But it was pretty nice. I dont think it was worth $100.00 Bucks though. Especially the bon fire smell the whole time.
So moving on to the game. We played the Philies. We lost by one point 4-5 :( I was very sad.
But I was very entertained because we had a whole row of drunk guys behind us and then across from us was philies fans. So yeah you can imagine. alot of booo's and cussing but lots of laughs. :)
This was me after we got back to the hotel and I was so sad! lol
So the next day (Saturday) we went to the Georgia Aquarium.
I love the Aquarium but they had so many ppl there and it was like they wanted to take their dear time and not let anyone else look at the fish. I was starting to get ill. But I prayed for God to give me the patients to make it through. LOL
I love the Aquarium but they had so many ppl there and it was like they wanted to take their dear time and not let anyone else look at the fish. I was starting to get ill. But I prayed for God to give me the patients to make it through. LOL
So the ATL trip ended.
But on the way home we stopped at my most favoritest place on the earth.
Shakespear Park in Montgomery :)
I love that park! I could spend my whole life there! I wish it was my yard! :)
I plan to get married there one day! I cant wait! :)
So that sums up my Trip to ATL and back!
On Sunday I went to church of course. We had a very good service. And afterwards me and my family and friends all went to my parents house for a grill out. :) I was so happy that my closest friends could be there with me. :) we sat around and talked and we sang and played the guitar! :)
After the grill out me and Jam and Haley and Mason went to go see madea! It was so good. I cried a few times. But It was still so funny. Im So thankful to be able to fellowship with great people! :)
Overall I had a wonderful birthday!!!
<3
<3
ALM
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
Life is too precious
As I look at this picture it brings me to the realization that life is not as complicated as we make it out to be. Really Life is simple, we just choose to let the "small" things get to us.
I often wonder if my heart will ever heal from all the heart break, or when all my dreams and wishes will come true. I cant help but to fill my heart with jealousy and bitterness. As I wake up each day alone it just get worse. Wondering what happened or where I went wrong.
These "Small" things can grow into something so big that we have no clue what to do it anymore.
This is the point in which I am standing in my life. You may look at me and I may look fine. But no one can see the inside of your heart or your mind. No one but the Lord knows what is going on in your life. Truly.
This weekend I have realized that it is the season of change. It may not be for anyone else, but it is for me. I am tired of being unhappy. So starting today On this Monday May the 9th I will be changing quite a few things in my life. And I will be moving forward and stop looking behind me. Because you cant change the past but you can decide what happens in your future.
No more will I sit back and watch everyone be happy. I am going to step up and move on and start making myself happy.
I can do all things through Christ! Because he strengthens me!
I believe God will provide me with the things I need in my life!
I know that he hears my desperation cries. I know he knows my heart better than anyone.
My life is a special gift and I am going to start treating it that way. You only get one chance in this life, in this body. So Im going to stop being scared to step out. Isnt that what faith is for? I have asked him to direct my paths and he is doing so. Along with keeping his hand upon me.
This week is also my 24th birthday! This weekend will be the start of my new life of happiness.
I am going to ATL for the braves game and to the aquarium.
I will post pictures so you all can keep up with my new exciting life!
Oh and I have been studying. breaking it down it to groups this week. So I can study the main groups each week until my test. I will be so glad when I get all this behind me! :)
I hope everyone has a blessed day!
ALM
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Thursday, April 28, 2011
Disaster Strikes
Disaster Strikes Alabama
This mile wide tornado traveled on the ground for over 30 miles.
Over 200 lives were taken. Thousands Injured. several still missing in the dibree.
This natural disaster has left everyone with heavy hearts. Some are gathering up all they have to donate, some are gathering teams to go help clean up the areas. Most importantly people are praying. Like me I have been praying non stop for these people and for the families who have lost someone.
It is sad to hear that people are walking the street with nothing. NOTHING! can you imagine yourself with NOTHING. I cant.
Mothers with out any food for there children, no dippers for there babies.
People are in extreme panic. There are break outs of people killing one another. Breaking into stores that are still standing.
Could all these wordily disasters mean something?
Is all this a sign from above? Tonight as you read this blog I pray that it will prick your heart to pray or to offer anything that you have to help.
There are thousands without shelter. I couldn't imagine losing my home let alone a family member.
In this time of true chaos we need to come together and pray intercede for those who cant. Help however you can.
Tonight as I eat my dinner, I will pick and barely eat because i will think about those who didn't have dinner tonight.
As I take a shower and put clean clothes on, I will think of those who do not have this privilege.
As I lay in my bed, I will toss and turn and think about those who do not have a bed.
Tonight I will get on my face crying out to God for everyone.
The lord is my strength.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Catching Up
Its been awhile since I have updated on a few things, So I thought I would Catch you up. :)
Massage Therapy is still in progress. I got approved to take my Boards again.They gave me another 2 Chances. Which I am hoping it will only take one! I have started gathering my study materials back up again. Its time to buckle down and get the ball rolling. My test will be on June 3rd.
I met a girl named Anita. She goes to church with me and she is in the same boat as me. So we are going to study together and try to teach each other what we know.
WLC this is still in my prayers every night. But right now, it is not my most important prayer request. I am not sure what will happen about all of that. I feel like I need to get my license before I move, that way I can practice while going to school. I know God has big plans. I know that it will all work out.
Cleaning Business
Cleaning is going well on the weekends. I did not clean this past weekend, which I am glad. It felt good to have break! :) I love cleaning those houses. They are beautiful! Hopefully one day I will own one for myself. :)
I needed a break this weekend. Especially since I am about to be over loaded with studying.
My Birthday! Is coming up on May 13th :)
Unfortunately it is on Friday the 13th this year, But i am looking at it in a good way, because Its on the weekend. :) I will be 24 :)
My plans are:
Friday night going to see the Braves play! : )
Saturday going to the aquarium :) I'm definitely seeing the dolphins this time. :) I have been waiting on them to get the dolphin exhibit open for a year now! LOL
Sunday going to church of course
My birthday is going to be special this year because someone special is coming to spend it with me! :)
I am very excited! :)
The Band
I joined the REMIX band at church again. Its going very good so far, I really enjoy it. Im just glad to be singing again. We have band practice every Tuesday night, which works out perfect for me, because I get off early on Tuesdays, so it gives me plenty of time get everything done! :)
I went and saw Author this weekend. It was actually very funny. I would like to see so many other movies I would like to see, but i will prolly have to wait till they are at the REDBOX :)
So I think thats all for now. At least thats all I can think of.
~ALM~
Massage Therapy is still in progress. I got approved to take my Boards again.They gave me another 2 Chances. Which I am hoping it will only take one! I have started gathering my study materials back up again. Its time to buckle down and get the ball rolling. My test will be on June 3rd.
I met a girl named Anita. She goes to church with me and she is in the same boat as me. So we are going to study together and try to teach each other what we know.
WLC this is still in my prayers every night. But right now, it is not my most important prayer request. I am not sure what will happen about all of that. I feel like I need to get my license before I move, that way I can practice while going to school. I know God has big plans. I know that it will all work out.
Cleaning Business
Cleaning is going well on the weekends. I did not clean this past weekend, which I am glad. It felt good to have break! :) I love cleaning those houses. They are beautiful! Hopefully one day I will own one for myself. :)
I needed a break this weekend. Especially since I am about to be over loaded with studying.
My Birthday! Is coming up on May 13th :)
Unfortunately it is on Friday the 13th this year, But i am looking at it in a good way, because Its on the weekend. :) I will be 24 :)
My plans are:
Friday night going to see the Braves play! : )
Saturday going to the aquarium :) I'm definitely seeing the dolphins this time. :) I have been waiting on them to get the dolphin exhibit open for a year now! LOL
Sunday going to church of course
My birthday is going to be special this year because someone special is coming to spend it with me! :)
I am very excited! :)
The Band
I joined the REMIX band at church again. Its going very good so far, I really enjoy it. Im just glad to be singing again. We have band practice every Tuesday night, which works out perfect for me, because I get off early on Tuesdays, so it gives me plenty of time get everything done! :)
I went and saw Author this weekend. It was actually very funny. I would like to see so many other movies I would like to see, but i will prolly have to wait till they are at the REDBOX :)
So I think thats all for now. At least thats all I can think of.
~ALM~
Thursday, April 21, 2011
The Faith Cry
I was given a devotion yesterday, and it had a very Strong meaning to me. I had never heard this before. But I am glad I did.
How many people do you hear of that cry out of to Jesus in desperation? I know that I am one of them. I thought that's what you did. I never heard of anything else. I thought when you needed something, or when you are hurt you cry out in desperation to God for help.
This is what the devotion says.
Be of Good Cheer.
" And I exhort you to be of good cheer." Acts 27:22
What do you do when you're in a perilous situation? If your like I used to be, you cry out to God in desperation.
One afternoon when I was squalling out to God about something, he interrupted me and said, did you know that I don't hear the cry of my children when they cry out in desperation? WHAT!!!!????
The Lord said, No I hear the desperation cry of a sinner because that is all they can cry out. But once you are born again, you ought to be crying out in FAITH. I hear the FAITH CRY.
What is the faith cry?
It is calling things that be not as though they where. Romans 4:17
This really gave me a wake up call. Because I know that I don't cry out in faith. But now I know I need to start! Its amazing how God is always giving you answers or help. You just have to be sensitive enough to the spirit to hear it.
I need to hear that yesterday. And I hope that from now on out I have a FAITH CRY!
How many people do you hear of that cry out of to Jesus in desperation? I know that I am one of them. I thought that's what you did. I never heard of anything else. I thought when you needed something, or when you are hurt you cry out in desperation to God for help.
This is what the devotion says.
Be of Good Cheer.
" And I exhort you to be of good cheer." Acts 27:22
What do you do when you're in a perilous situation? If your like I used to be, you cry out to God in desperation.
One afternoon when I was squalling out to God about something, he interrupted me and said, did you know that I don't hear the cry of my children when they cry out in desperation? WHAT!!!!????
The Lord said, No I hear the desperation cry of a sinner because that is all they can cry out. But once you are born again, you ought to be crying out in FAITH. I hear the FAITH CRY.
What is the faith cry?
It is calling things that be not as though they where. Romans 4:17
This really gave me a wake up call. Because I know that I don't cry out in faith. But now I know I need to start! Its amazing how God is always giving you answers or help. You just have to be sensitive enough to the spirit to hear it.
I need to hear that yesterday. And I hope that from now on out I have a FAITH CRY!
I wish I may, I wish I might
For the past month or so I have been cleaning beach houses on the weekends for extra money.
These houses are in 30A which its a ritzy part off 98.
It is so beautiful. I would love to live in one of these houses, or I would be satisfied just staying. lol
These houses rent for around $8,000 to ALOT just for one week. They are multi million dollar homes.
Anywho, I have some pictures I will upload off of my phone here in a few and tag them to this blog. I think the best part about these houses are the furniture and the color. I mean its just incredible. It makes me want to go to the thrift store and buy old furniture and paint them. lol I would love for my house to be beachy. :) One day I will have a house like this! Im speaking it into existence. :)
Cleaning these houses are alot of work, but it is worth it just to be in these houses. :) And to be so close to the beach.
The beach is like therapy in itself. The salty air and the sounds of the water. I could just live there and always be happy. :)
Ok so Im about to go upload some photos! :) Im sure the more I clean I will be posting more and more pictures! Enjoy! :)
Anna
These houses are in 30A which its a ritzy part off 98.
It is so beautiful. I would love to live in one of these houses, or I would be satisfied just staying. lol
These houses rent for around $8,000 to ALOT just for one week. They are multi million dollar homes.
Anywho, I have some pictures I will upload off of my phone here in a few and tag them to this blog. I think the best part about these houses are the furniture and the color. I mean its just incredible. It makes me want to go to the thrift store and buy old furniture and paint them. lol I would love for my house to be beachy. :) One day I will have a house like this! Im speaking it into existence. :)
Cleaning these houses are alot of work, but it is worth it just to be in these houses. :) And to be so close to the beach.
The beach is like therapy in itself. The salty air and the sounds of the water. I could just live there and always be happy. :)
Ok so Im about to go upload some photos! :) Im sure the more I clean I will be posting more and more pictures! Enjoy! :)
Anna
Friday, April 8, 2011
True love
The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you
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Thursday, April 7, 2011
A New Bloom
Today marks one month since Brittany and Baby Shep have entered into Eternity with Jesus.
This morning I also had a Bright Yellow flower Bloom right in front of me! I didn't realize until just now that it was The anniversary. I honestly thought it represented my new life since i was baptized last night. And i guess it could mean both.
The way I look at it is Brittany was there with me this morning to great me with a Bright smile and to tell me she was proud of me, but all in the same time to let us know she is doing fine. By the end of the Day that flower was in full bloom. It makes me smile with proudness and remembrance!
My thoughts and prayers are with the Shepard and Pugh family!
I know the Lord is my Shepard! :)
~ALM~
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Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Life Changing
Once again My God has amazed me! I love it when he just throws me for a loop!
Tonight I got baptized for the first time! yes the first time! I will be 24 next month!
I have been wanting to get baptized for a long time now, but I always came up with an excuse! I wanted so and so to baptize me, I want it to be a private setting, blah blah blah..Tonights excuse was I didnt have any clothes to change into. Well as soon as I said that it came to me that I did have clothes in the car. LOL
Its amazing how God works.
Last week I received an email asking me if i was still interested in being baptized. and I thought oo i better hold on to this email, then i just never went back to it. Then I have been praying for a week now for a totally cleansing of my body, i true forgiveness. Then tonight i get to church, and I was made aware that we were going over to main service for the water baptism service and i was oh cool, then i made a joke that i was supposed to be baptized tonight. Well we get over there, as soon as i walk in the building i felt a tug on my heart. as the service started everyone was getting baptized and i felt like wow i missed my chance, well as soon as i said that he offered for anyone else to come.. well my mom kept tugging at to go and i kept saying no i dont have clothes, no i have to sing, then my little nephew got baptized and i was like wow, well then more and more ppl kept going up there and i felt the tug get stronger and stronger and i couldn't bare it anymore.. i got up and literally ran. I was shaking the whole time, but i knew it was something that needed to be done and so it was finished and i felt new! It was amazing All of my past was gone! I felt complete. and Then I was like well i guess i wont sing.. haley had ran to the car to get my clothes and then they waited for me before they started singing! :) I got to sing wet head and all, but it was amazing! The worship was different! I was on FIRE! and his spirit fell in that place! Pastor Scott spoke and it was so good! He spoke about not being ashamed of God and stand up for him, Be who we are called to be! and we literally had prolly 15 ppl laid out in the spirit! I was awesome! I love it when GOd shows up and Shows out!!! My God Is awesome!!! Im so excited to see what God is going to do next! :)
~ALM~
Tonight I got baptized for the first time! yes the first time! I will be 24 next month!
I have been wanting to get baptized for a long time now, but I always came up with an excuse! I wanted so and so to baptize me, I want it to be a private setting, blah blah blah..Tonights excuse was I didnt have any clothes to change into. Well as soon as I said that it came to me that I did have clothes in the car. LOL
Its amazing how God works.
Last week I received an email asking me if i was still interested in being baptized. and I thought oo i better hold on to this email, then i just never went back to it. Then I have been praying for a week now for a totally cleansing of my body, i true forgiveness. Then tonight i get to church, and I was made aware that we were going over to main service for the water baptism service and i was oh cool, then i made a joke that i was supposed to be baptized tonight. Well we get over there, as soon as i walk in the building i felt a tug on my heart. as the service started everyone was getting baptized and i felt like wow i missed my chance, well as soon as i said that he offered for anyone else to come.. well my mom kept tugging at to go and i kept saying no i dont have clothes, no i have to sing, then my little nephew got baptized and i was like wow, well then more and more ppl kept going up there and i felt the tug get stronger and stronger and i couldn't bare it anymore.. i got up and literally ran. I was shaking the whole time, but i knew it was something that needed to be done and so it was finished and i felt new! It was amazing All of my past was gone! I felt complete. and Then I was like well i guess i wont sing.. haley had ran to the car to get my clothes and then they waited for me before they started singing! :) I got to sing wet head and all, but it was amazing! The worship was different! I was on FIRE! and his spirit fell in that place! Pastor Scott spoke and it was so good! He spoke about not being ashamed of God and stand up for him, Be who we are called to be! and we literally had prolly 15 ppl laid out in the spirit! I was awesome! I love it when GOd shows up and Shows out!!! My God Is awesome!!! Im so excited to see what God is going to do next! :)
~ALM~
Only you
Throughout my day I often think of Brittany and baby Shep. Since their accident This verse comes to me all the time now. It was Brittanys favorite verse, and it has slowly become mine. This verse has so much meaning to it.
There is a season and purpose for everything! If you just sit back and think about it. It also takes me back to everything happens for a reason!
This verse has such a powerful meaning to it!
At work today I drew this! It turned out very well I think anyways. I sent a copy of it to Brittanys Facebook! I hope her and her family enjoy it! :)
It also has inspired me to start doing more art work! :)
I miss Brittany and Baby Shep. I miss seeing the smiles on her families faces.
I know with time I will see it again!
Brittany has forever changed my life! and She continues to do so each day!
Love you Britt!
~ALM~
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Monday, April 4, 2011
Happiness
Happiness is something that I have found in such small things.
This weekend while I was at the beach I didn't take for granted how the sand felt on my feet, how the ocean water felt as it crashed over me, or how the sun looked as it set before the amazing stars were set in there place.
God has created such an amazing place for us to live. I have learned not to take it for granted.
I will post some pictures on this blog I hope it will work.
ALM
This weekend while I was at the beach I didn't take for granted how the sand felt on my feet, how the ocean water felt as it crashed over me, or how the sun looked as it set before the amazing stars were set in there place.
God has created such an amazing place for us to live. I have learned not to take it for granted.
I will post some pictures on this blog I hope it will work.
ALM
Monday, March 28, 2011
God Is Good!
It has been awhile since i have posted anything. I have been extremely busy. Everything is going good though. I can't complain about anything. I will update more on that later. For right now I just want to share something that I wrote to Brooke, Brittany's sister. She has been updating Brittany's page ever since Brittany past, because Brittany and Shep have been giving signs, so she shares them with everyone. Well it had been a couple of days a Brittany hadn't really given them a sign, and I kept praying Brittany this is what everyone is getting there strength from.. please give them a sign. And i kept praying and then on Wednesday morning I got an email from Wave Women and it was titled My Sister's Keeper. I just kinda closed it out of my phone and just didn't pay it any mind because i was at work. Well when i got off work. I was reading the email.. and I just broke down. It was so Brittany. Everything in that email describe Brittany, and not only that but it was "my sisters keeper" just for Brooke. So I thought well I better send this to her.. Well then i had all these thoughts like well.. you will make them upset or this isn't right its stupid... I knew all of that was coming from the devil.. Well on Thursday I got a phone call from my friend Anthony and he was in town and he wanted to try and get a bunch of the TNT youth group up and have dinner. TNT was the youth group Tim Shepard started, Brittany's dad. And so I said sure.... Well we are all at Applebees and he says to me, we are going to see Bro Tim and Mrs. Kim after we eat.. and I have been trying to see them speak to them whatever, but just didn't know how or what to say, so i said yes. So the time rolls around to go see them and they were just all sitting there listening to Christian radio and of course they were all excited to see us, but you could see it in there eyes that they were struggling not to cry.We all began to talk about all the good stories, and funny ones.. about Brittany and about camp. and then Brooke said we are still waiting on another sign.. its been a couple of days.. and i began to weep and it was like word vomit, and began to talk about the email i had gotten. and Brooke and Mrs Kim just started crying.. and said Anna, Brittany has gone through you to give us this sign, please email me this letter. So I did, and this is what it said!
Brooke,
I hope this message will send you joy,peace,and comfort. And I pray it will help you and your family thought this tragic time in your lives.
I just want to say thank you for allowing me and Ant, and Tiffany to come see you all last night. I have been wanting to for a week now, but had no idea how to get up with you guys or if it would be too hard on y'all. So i would just drive by and as i was going by slowly I would just pray, I would pray in the spirit, almost at a complete stop. My heart breaks for all of you. Your family has always been the perfect family. Y'all never showed if anything was wrong, y'all always had a smile on your face, and was always willing to help no matter what the situation was. Brooke last night you all truly amazed me at how well y'all are doing. But I can tell you are all getting your strength from God. I can see it in your eyes that you all have such a sensitive spirit now. My heart was truly touched last night. It was definitely a God thing that I was able to come over last night.
Brooke I want to share that email with you that I got.. I went through and looked up all the scriptures and they are truly amazing. I pray that maybe they will have answers for you. But most importantly I hope it bring you peace.
The title is called "My Sister's Keeper"
We are all called to our sister's keeper, to consider her, to be looking out for her. ( Brooke you and Brittany looked out for each other everyday... She is still looking out for you!) (You two always considered each other, in everything you did.) (And you will always be your sisters keeper, and she will be yours).
It is amazing how much larger our world becomes when we take our eyes off ourselves and onto others. (Brittany always put herself last, she always put others first.) I can see you Brooke doing the same now.
1. Be an encourager. It is so important to remember and encourage those in our world. 2 Corinthians 13:11 (NIV)
11: Finally, brothers and sisters rejoice! Strive for full restoration, encourage one another, be of one mind, live in peace. and the God of love and peace will be with you. ( Brittany was always an encourager!)
Hebrews 6:19 (NIV)
We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure it enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain.
2. Choose to rise above the circumstances. Take the high road when the situations happen. We can soar with the eagles or hang with the turkeys. Romans 12:14-16 (MSG)
Bless those who persecute you, bless and do not curse. rejoice with those who rejoice, mourn with those who mourn, live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited. ( Brittany and Brooke you both always rose above the circumstances, you always prayed for the right path to be on.) (Brittany never let anyone get to her in a negative way. she always held her head up high.) ( You two lived in Harmony together.)
3. Live in Peace. Let's not just be a peace keeper, but a peace maker. Psalm 34.14 ( NIV)
Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it.
( Brittany was a peace maker, and Brooke now you have to be the one to keep the peace. Pursue it!)
1Corinthians 14:33 (NLT)
For God is not a God of disorder but of peace, as in all meetings of Gods Holy people. ( God will Keep Peace in your homes.)
4. Live with Integrity Psalms 78:72 (NIV)
He Cared for them with a True Heart and Led them with Skillful Hands. ( This makes me smile, because this is Brittany 100%, She cared for all of you with a TRUE HEART, and She Led you all with Skillful hands.) She also wanted everyone to live there life with a purpose! She tried to help everyone figure out what there purpose was on this earth. Brooke I know you and your family has helped me throughout my years of growing up helping me figure out what my purpose was.I know that you all can continue to that for all as well!
5. Walk in Kindness.God has been kind to us and we need to extend that kindness to others. Job 6:14 (NIV)
Anyone who withholds kindness from a friend forsakes the fear of the almighty. ( Brittany never withheld kindness from ANYONE!)
Proverbs 31:26
When she speaks, Her words are wise, and she gives instructions with kindness. ( Once again I smile, When Brittany spoke the room was silent, Her words were wise, they were uplifting, meaningful. When she gave instruction it was always with kindness. Brittany was gifted with the ability to speak! That is how she changed so many lives. Brooke she isn't done changing lives. Her stories will continue to change lives. I know I will share her life with anyone I come in contact with. Brittany is someone I talk about daily now! My life has been Changed completely. Brooke you and your family are precious. I love you and your family very much! Please let me know if I can do anything. My cell is 334-405-9431
My God be your strength!
Love
Anna
Brooke replied back a couple of days later and expressed how much this meant to the family. and how it was so Brittany.
I am just thankful that i was sensitive enough to this sweet spirit.. and was able to help this sweet family! Friday when I got home after sending Brooke that letter I was walking in the front door, and looked down and saw little yellow flowers all in my flower bed.. and i just smiled and said hey to Brittany and Shep! I know they are with us all everyday, giving and showing us a little bit of heaven. We miss you Brittany and Shep and we will see you soon!
I hope this message will send you joy,peace,and comfort. And I pray it will help you and your family thought this tragic time in your lives.
I just want to say thank you for allowing me and Ant, and Tiffany to come see you all last night. I have been wanting to for a week now, but had no idea how to get up with you guys or if it would be too hard on y'all. So i would just drive by and as i was going by slowly I would just pray, I would pray in the spirit, almost at a complete stop. My heart breaks for all of you. Your family has always been the perfect family. Y'all never showed if anything was wrong, y'all always had a smile on your face, and was always willing to help no matter what the situation was. Brooke last night you all truly amazed me at how well y'all are doing. But I can tell you are all getting your strength from God. I can see it in your eyes that you all have such a sensitive spirit now. My heart was truly touched last night. It was definitely a God thing that I was able to come over last night.
Brooke I want to share that email with you that I got.. I went through and looked up all the scriptures and they are truly amazing. I pray that maybe they will have answers for you. But most importantly I hope it bring you peace.
The title is called "My Sister's Keeper"
We are all called to our sister's keeper, to consider her, to be looking out for her. ( Brooke you and Brittany looked out for each other everyday... She is still looking out for you!) (You two always considered each other, in everything you did.) (And you will always be your sisters keeper, and she will be yours).
It is amazing how much larger our world becomes when we take our eyes off ourselves and onto others. (Brittany always put herself last, she always put others first.) I can see you Brooke doing the same now.
1. Be an encourager. It is so important to remember and encourage those in our world. 2 Corinthians 13:11 (NIV)
11: Finally, brothers and sisters rejoice! Strive for full restoration, encourage one another, be of one mind, live in peace. and the God of love and peace will be with you. ( Brittany was always an encourager!)
Hebrews 6:19 (NIV)
We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure it enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain.
2. Choose to rise above the circumstances. Take the high road when the situations happen. We can soar with the eagles or hang with the turkeys. Romans 12:14-16 (MSG)
Bless those who persecute you, bless and do not curse. rejoice with those who rejoice, mourn with those who mourn, live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited. ( Brittany and Brooke you both always rose above the circumstances, you always prayed for the right path to be on.) (Brittany never let anyone get to her in a negative way. she always held her head up high.) ( You two lived in Harmony together.)
3. Live in Peace. Let's not just be a peace keeper, but a peace maker. Psalm 34.14 ( NIV)
Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it.
( Brittany was a peace maker, and Brooke now you have to be the one to keep the peace. Pursue it!)
1Corinthians 14:33 (NLT)
For God is not a God of disorder but of peace, as in all meetings of Gods Holy people. ( God will Keep Peace in your homes.)
4. Live with Integrity Psalms 78:72 (NIV)
He Cared for them with a True Heart and Led them with Skillful Hands. ( This makes me smile, because this is Brittany 100%, She cared for all of you with a TRUE HEART, and She Led you all with Skillful hands.) She also wanted everyone to live there life with a purpose! She tried to help everyone figure out what there purpose was on this earth. Brooke I know you and your family has helped me throughout my years of growing up helping me figure out what my purpose was.I know that you all can continue to that for all as well!
5. Walk in Kindness.God has been kind to us and we need to extend that kindness to others. Job 6:14 (NIV)
Anyone who withholds kindness from a friend forsakes the fear of the almighty. ( Brittany never withheld kindness from ANYONE!)
Proverbs 31:26
When she speaks, Her words are wise, and she gives instructions with kindness. ( Once again I smile, When Brittany spoke the room was silent, Her words were wise, they were uplifting, meaningful. When she gave instruction it was always with kindness. Brittany was gifted with the ability to speak! That is how she changed so many lives. Brooke she isn't done changing lives. Her stories will continue to change lives. I know I will share her life with anyone I come in contact with. Brittany is someone I talk about daily now! My life has been Changed completely. Brooke you and your family are precious. I love you and your family very much! Please let me know if I can do anything. My cell is 334-405-9431
My God be your strength!
Love
Anna
Brooke replied back a couple of days later and expressed how much this meant to the family. and how it was so Brittany.
I am just thankful that i was sensitive enough to this sweet spirit.. and was able to help this sweet family! Friday when I got home after sending Brooke that letter I was walking in the front door, and looked down and saw little yellow flowers all in my flower bed.. and i just smiled and said hey to Brittany and Shep! I know they are with us all everyday, giving and showing us a little bit of heaven. We miss you Brittany and Shep and we will see you soon!
~ALM~
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