From a distance

I titled this post from a distance because the relationship I'm in will soon be a long distance relationship.

First off let me start by saying I was not even looking for anyone to be with. Neither was he.
Love happens on Gods timing not ours.
I've always been told to stop searching that love will find out, especially when you least expect it. Well I can say I have witnessed this.
It's amazing how awesome it is to just fall in love with someone so unexpectedly.
I'm sure you've also heard that you fall in love with your best friend. Well I can honestly say that this man was my friend for many many years and recently within these last few months became best friends. There for each other when no one else was.
To this day I can't tell you when or how I fell for him, it just happened.
He takes my breath away, makes my heart beat so fast, gives me the biggest butterflies, brings a smile to my face and tears to my eyes.
The last 3 months have honestly been the best months of my life.

As time gets closer to his deployment my heart begins to grow weary. When I'm away from him for more than an hour I feel like a part of me is missing. And soon to be 8 hours away from each other, barely seeing each other I just don't know how long I'll be able to stand not being with him.
I feel that if we make it through this , we can make it through anything.
I love him with everything that is in me. I will do whatever it takes.

My family loves him, which is very rare. And I love his family as if they were my very own.
Everything just seems so perfect, too perfect.
Only God could have planned something so amazing.
I know this journey I'm about to take will not be easy but it will be worth it.
I know that love is strong enough to conquer some of the toughest challenges. And I believe our love for each other is just as strong.

<3

Love

Love is such a precious gift.
When you find it, you will understand that gift.

The moments when you look at him while he is sleeping... Listen to him breathe...

When he leaves his shampoo, body wash and shaving Cream.. You use it just smell like him..

Argue through text just to get him to talk to you...

When you aren't with him all u can do is think about him...

You would do anything just to make him feel your love

Moments

There are moments in life that you wish you could go back to, just to remember that feeling you had.
Or to remember what you were thinking...
That moment just happened to me as I read the last letter Jeff wrote me after we broke up.
Those words in that letter are words that I have been praying to hear for a long time. It's almost as if I was not mature enough or open minded enough at the time to understand what was going on exactly.
I have realized a lot tonight. My heart has grown week these last couple of weeks and I haven't been getting any reassurance or anything to uplift my heart and my thoughts. I'm afraid I'm wearing down to the nub.
As I sat on my couch tonight crying I prayed that god would reveal what it is that I am supposed to see in my life. And in this relationship I'm currently in.
The bravery I had tonight resulted in what I needed to hear and read. I'm thankful I listened to my heart, and sadly I believe it's what I need to be doing more often.
I have a feeling that soon I will be typing another entry weather it be good or bad... I'm hoping it's going to be good. But I'm scared to say that deep down in my gut I feel it's going to be bad!
I can only pray for the best!

just a little thing called "life"

One minute your happy... And those minutes are with you.
The other minute I'm worried to death that your leaving me... And those minutes are when I'm not with you.

Those sporadic conversations about what our first house is going to look like just bring hope and warmth to my heart.

Those times when don't speak at a make me wonder what's on your mind.

And then my favorite is when we both start talking at the same time and we are talking about the same thing!

No matter what I know deep down that were meant to be.

~ALM~

A little taste of my journal

My Heart breaks daily for the longing of my desires
My Soul screams for something more.
My mouth thirst for the purest of water and the finest of foods.
My heart longs to be with the one I love.

Dear Lord place me in the arms of my one true love.
Show me his face, let me feel his touch.
I clench my fist so tightly they almost bleed.
I scream so loudly but one hears me.
I shut my eyes so tight and still through all the tears I see your beautiful face.

My heart is slowly breaking each piece shattering as it falls from my chest.
Will my heart ever be mended.
Dear Lord you know my pleas and you know my hearts greatest desires.
Please hear me Lord. Please bless me with understanding and the patients and may your will be done in my life.

Valentines

So today is Valentines Day! :)

So I was sitting here thinking of all the things I would love from the person I am going to spend the rest of my life with.

1. A card and flowers/ candy every valentines day.
2. To be told everyday that he loves me.
3. To be kissed everyday.
4. If when I get sick.. he will take care of me... play Disney movies for me all day.. :)
5. no matter the case he will make me laugh everyday.

I hope everyone has had a great day! :)

I know I didnt get anything but a kiss this morning... but I did get a trip to N.C this weekend to go snowboarding for the first time : )  :)

Very nervous but excited...
I am hoping that I will hear 3 words this weekend... :)
just a little wish I have :)
<3

the little things

Have you ever heard
" its the little things in life that matter most"

      well I have found this to be true....

He may be having the worst day... and you may get real quite and think to yourself.. oh this is going to be a long night...
                      but then he looks over at you and takes a deep breath and says you look so pretty tonight.

Just when you think you dont know where you stand in your relationship... he says

" I dont want to sleep another night without you"

"I think we are serious enough for me to have a key"

"Guys this one is a keeper"

just when you think you are doing everything wrong.... he tells you to never stop what you are doing...

its the little things in life that mean the most.. like you both looking up at the stars at the same time.... you saying the same thing at the same time.... text the same thing at the same time...
embarrass the mess out of one another and just laugh... and laugh...:)
its the those little things in life that make me love you more and more everyday....
<3