Monday, July 2, 2012
From a distance
I titled this post from a distance because the relationship I'm in will soon be a long distance relationship.
First off let me start by saying I was not even looking for anyone to be with. Neither was he.
Love happens on Gods timing not ours.
I've always been told to stop searching that love will find out, especially when you least expect it. Well I can say I have witnessed this.
It's amazing how awesome it is to just fall in love with someone so unexpectedly.
I'm sure you've also heard that you fall in love with your best friend. Well I can honestly say that this man was my friend for many many years and recently within these last few months became best friends. There for each other when no one else was.
To this day I can't tell you when or how I fell for him, it just happened.
He takes my breath away, makes my heart beat so fast, gives me the biggest butterflies, brings a smile to my face and tears to my eyes.
The last 3 months have honestly been the best months of my life.
As time gets closer to his deployment my heart begins to grow weary. When I'm away from him for more than an hour I feel like a part of me is missing. And soon to be 8 hours away from each other, barely seeing each other I just don't know how long I'll be able to stand not being with him.
I feel that if we make it through this , we can make it through anything.
I love him with everything that is in me. I will do whatever it takes.
My family loves him, which is very rare. And I love his family as if they were my very own.
Everything just seems so perfect, too perfect.
Only God could have planned something so amazing.
I know this journey I'm about to take will not be easy but it will be worth it.
I know that love is strong enough to conquer some of the toughest challenges. And I believe our love for each other is just as strong.
<3
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Love
Love is such a precious gift.
When you find it, you will understand that gift.
The moments when you look at him while he is sleeping... Listen to him breathe...
When he leaves his shampoo, body wash and shaving Cream.. You use it just smell like him..
Argue through text just to get him to talk to you...
When you aren't with him all u can do is think about him...
You would do anything just to make him feel your love
When you find it, you will understand that gift.
The moments when you look at him while he is sleeping... Listen to him breathe...
When he leaves his shampoo, body wash and shaving Cream.. You use it just smell like him..
Argue through text just to get him to talk to you...
When you aren't with him all u can do is think about him...
You would do anything just to make him feel your love
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Moments
There are moments in life that you wish you could go back to, just to remember that feeling you had.
Or to remember what you were thinking...
That moment just happened to me as I read the last letter Jeff wrote me after we broke up.
Those words in that letter are words that I have been praying to hear for a long time. It's almost as if I was not mature enough or open minded enough at the time to understand what was going on exactly.
I have realized a lot tonight. My heart has grown week these last couple of weeks and I haven't been getting any reassurance or anything to uplift my heart and my thoughts. I'm afraid I'm wearing down to the nub.
As I sat on my couch tonight crying I prayed that god would reveal what it is that I am supposed to see in my life. And in this relationship I'm currently in.
The bravery I had tonight resulted in what I needed to hear and read. I'm thankful I listened to my heart, and sadly I believe it's what I need to be doing more often.
I have a feeling that soon I will be typing another entry weather it be good or bad... I'm hoping it's going to be good. But I'm scared to say that deep down in my gut I feel it's going to be bad!
I can only pray for the best!
Or to remember what you were thinking...
That moment just happened to me as I read the last letter Jeff wrote me after we broke up.
Those words in that letter are words that I have been praying to hear for a long time. It's almost as if I was not mature enough or open minded enough at the time to understand what was going on exactly.
I have realized a lot tonight. My heart has grown week these last couple of weeks and I haven't been getting any reassurance or anything to uplift my heart and my thoughts. I'm afraid I'm wearing down to the nub.
As I sat on my couch tonight crying I prayed that god would reveal what it is that I am supposed to see in my life. And in this relationship I'm currently in.
The bravery I had tonight resulted in what I needed to hear and read. I'm thankful I listened to my heart, and sadly I believe it's what I need to be doing more often.
I have a feeling that soon I will be typing another entry weather it be good or bad... I'm hoping it's going to be good. But I'm scared to say that deep down in my gut I feel it's going to be bad!
I can only pray for the best!
Saturday, February 25, 2012
just a little thing called "life"
One minute your happy... And those minutes are with you.
The other minute I'm worried to death that your leaving me... And those minutes are when I'm not with you.
Those sporadic conversations about what our first house is going to look like just bring hope and warmth to my heart.
Those times when don't speak at a make me wonder what's on your mind.
And then my favorite is when we both start talking at the same time and we are talking about the same thing!
No matter what I know deep down that were meant to be.
~ALM~
The other minute I'm worried to death that your leaving me... And those minutes are when I'm not with you.
Those sporadic conversations about what our first house is going to look like just bring hope and warmth to my heart.
Those times when don't speak at a make me wonder what's on your mind.
And then my favorite is when we both start talking at the same time and we are talking about the same thing!
No matter what I know deep down that were meant to be.
~ALM~
Monday, February 20, 2012
A little taste of my journal
My Heart breaks daily for the longing of my desires
My Soul screams for something more.
My mouth thirst for the purest of water and the finest of foods.
My heart longs to be with the one I love.
Dear Lord place me in the arms of my one true love.
Show me his face, let me feel his touch.
I clench my fist so tightly they almost bleed.
I scream so loudly but one hears me.
I shut my eyes so tight and still through all the tears I see your beautiful face.
My heart is slowly breaking each piece shattering as it falls from my chest.
Will my heart ever be mended.
Dear Lord you know my pleas and you know my hearts greatest desires.
Please hear me Lord. Please bless me with understanding and the patients and may your will be done in my life.
My Soul screams for something more.
My mouth thirst for the purest of water and the finest of foods.
My heart longs to be with the one I love.
Dear Lord place me in the arms of my one true love.
Show me his face, let me feel his touch.
I clench my fist so tightly they almost bleed.
I scream so loudly but one hears me.
I shut my eyes so tight and still through all the tears I see your beautiful face.
My heart is slowly breaking each piece shattering as it falls from my chest.
Will my heart ever be mended.
Dear Lord you know my pleas and you know my hearts greatest desires.
Please hear me Lord. Please bless me with understanding and the patients and may your will be done in my life.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Valentines
So today is Valentines Day! :)
So I was sitting here thinking of all the things I would love from the person I am going to spend the rest of my life with.
1. A card and flowers/ candy every valentines day.
2. To be told everyday that he loves me.
3. To be kissed everyday.
4. If when I get sick.. he will take care of me... play Disney movies for me all day.. :)
5. no matter the case he will make me laugh everyday.
I hope everyone has had a great day! :)
I know I didnt get anything but a kiss this morning... but I did get a trip to N.C this weekend to go snowboarding for the first time : ) :)
Very nervous but excited...
I am hoping that I will hear 3 words this weekend... :)
just a little wish I have :)
<3
So I was sitting here thinking of all the things I would love from the person I am going to spend the rest of my life with.
1. A card and flowers/ candy every valentines day.
2. To be told everyday that he loves me.
3. To be kissed everyday.
4. If when I get sick.. he will take care of me... play Disney movies for me all day.. :)
5. no matter the case he will make me laugh everyday.
I hope everyone has had a great day! :)
I know I didnt get anything but a kiss this morning... but I did get a trip to N.C this weekend to go snowboarding for the first time : ) :)
Very nervous but excited...
I am hoping that I will hear 3 words this weekend... :)
just a little wish I have :)
<3
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
the little things
Have you ever heard
" its the little things in life that matter most"
well I have found this to be true....
He may be having the worst day... and you may get real quite and think to yourself.. oh this is going to be a long night...
but then he looks over at you and takes a deep breath and says you look so pretty tonight.
Just when you think you dont know where you stand in your relationship... he says
" I dont want to sleep another night without you"
"I think we are serious enough for me to have a key"
"Guys this one is a keeper"
just when you think you are doing everything wrong.... he tells you to never stop what you are doing...
its the little things in life that mean the most.. like you both looking up at the stars at the same time.... you saying the same thing at the same time.... text the same thing at the same time...
embarrass the mess out of one another and just laugh... and laugh...:)
its the those little things in life that make me love you more and more everyday....
<3
" its the little things in life that matter most"
well I have found this to be true....
He may be having the worst day... and you may get real quite and think to yourself.. oh this is going to be a long night...
but then he looks over at you and takes a deep breath and says you look so pretty tonight.
Just when you think you dont know where you stand in your relationship... he says
" I dont want to sleep another night without you"
"I think we are serious enough for me to have a key"
"Guys this one is a keeper"
just when you think you are doing everything wrong.... he tells you to never stop what you are doing...
its the little things in life that mean the most.. like you both looking up at the stars at the same time.... you saying the same thing at the same time.... text the same thing at the same time...
embarrass the mess out of one another and just laugh... and laugh...:)
its the those little things in life that make me love you more and more everyday....
<3
Monday, January 30, 2012
Love
You have someone right here right now that is willing to give you her heart. Someone who understands the real meaning of love. and doesnt just throw the "L" word around just cause she thinks your cute. But someone who tells you that she loves you everyday. Someone that not only says she loves you but can also show you how she loves you.
I get so mad at everyone who has ruined the word LOVE. who has hurt someone by using that word in false terms.. someone who has been hurt by that word, trys so hard to find out what it really means but keeps failing and eventually gives up.. like in my situation..
Im willing to give him my everything, my all, but he has been hurt too many times.. and its hard for him to trust again... to "LOVE" again..
I am going to do everything in my power to show him how much I love him, and how I am the ONE who is never going to hurt him, who is NEVER going to LEAVE him.
I am going to make him fall in LOVE with me.
He is the one i have dreamed about. there is finally a face to my prince charming in all my dreams.. God has finally answered my prayers..
But i never thought it would be this complicated.
God I love this man. Help him understand. Help him LOVE again.
I get so mad at everyone who has ruined the word LOVE. who has hurt someone by using that word in false terms.. someone who has been hurt by that word, trys so hard to find out what it really means but keeps failing and eventually gives up.. like in my situation..
Im willing to give him my everything, my all, but he has been hurt too many times.. and its hard for him to trust again... to "LOVE" again..
I am going to do everything in my power to show him how much I love him, and how I am the ONE who is never going to hurt him, who is NEVER going to LEAVE him.
I am going to make him fall in LOVE with me.
He is the one i have dreamed about. there is finally a face to my prince charming in all my dreams.. God has finally answered my prayers..
But i never thought it would be this complicated.
God I love this man. Help him understand. Help him LOVE again.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
praying for your wife
31 Days of Prayer for My Wife |
| Day 1 That she might become a holy woman of prayer, mature in the Lord, growing in her knowledge of the Lord.
Day 2 That she might grow into a woman of integrity, who works righteousness, speaks truth in her heart, and walks, sits, and stands only in the path of the godly.
Day3 That she might be a woman of contentment.
Day 4 That she might learn to take every thought captive, to not be conformed to the world’s thinking, and to think scripturally.
Day 5 That she might daily seek You with all her heart, walking in the Spirit moment by moment, growing in her dependence on You.
Day 6 That she would be ever captivated by my love.
Day 7 That she would be a woman of courage.
Day 8 May she be a woman of inner beauty.
Day 9 May she always look at the plank in her own eye before seeing the speck in another’s eye.
Day 10 That she might become a called woman, not driven, with well-thought through and prayed through goals in her life.
Day 11 That she may be a woman of prayer, guarding her heart and mind, putting into practice the biblical things she has heard, seen, and learned.
Day 12 That she might stand firm against the schemes of the devil and resist Satan in all circumstances.
Day 13 That she might grow in spiritual maturity by putting away childish things, cultivating understanding, striving after the Christ ideal, partaking of the deeper truths of the gospel, and overcoming temptation.
Day 14 May she know that her home is not here, but in heaven.
Day 15 That she would learn not to depend on her circumstances for happiness but on You alone.
Day 16 That she would be a woman who enters into spiritual warfare.
Day 17 That she might have a new strength in the midst of her busy schedule, and that You might infuse her with Your strength.
Day 18 That she might have a burden to see lost people come to Jesus as Lord and Savior.
Day 19 That she would be kept from fools, and that her friends would be men and women who walk with You.
Day 20 That her self-image might be a reflection of Your thoughts toward her.
Day 21 That she might be a woman who values wisdom.
Day 22 That she might not be deceived into unbelief, sin, or bitterness.
Day 23 That she might learn to love as You have commanded.
Day 24 That the fruit of the Spirit might be exhibited more and more in her life, visible to her family, friends, co-workers, and those who do not know You.
Day 25 That she might be a virtuous woman.
Day 26 That she might grow daily in character.
Day 27 That she might keep a clear conscience.
Day 28 That You will protect her, guarding her course.
Day 29 That she might learn to manage her time well.
Day 30 That You would put a song in her heart.
Day 31 That she may have a holy fear of You, O Lord.
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Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Pray For Him :)
Praying for Your Husband
“She does him good…” Proverbs 31:12a; Bless your husband by praying for him!
The Apostle Paul instructed all Christians to pray for one another (Ephesians 6:18). This includes wives’ responsibility and privilege to pray for their husbands. Earnest prayer for your husband is good for him, for you and the spiritual health of your home (Proverbs 31:11-12) Satan desires to destroy your husband, especially his character and his leadership in your relationship. Trust God through prayer as you daily surrender your husband and marriage to the Lord’s wise, loving care.
31 Days of Prayer
Day 1: Pray that your husband will grow spiritually and consider his accountability before the Lord. Pray that he will guard his heart by developing spiritual disciplines—Bible reading and study, prayer, meditation, scripture memorizations, etc. (2 Peter 3:18; Proverbs 4:23)
Day 2: Pray that your husband’s relationship with God and His Word will bear fruit in his life. Pray that he will be a man of wisdom and understanding, fearing the Lord. (Prov. 3:7, 9:10; Ps 112:1)
Day 3: Pray that your husband will be humble and quick to agree with God about his sin. Pray that his heart will be tender toward the voice of the Lord. (Ps. 51:2-4; Micah 6:8)
Day 4: Pray that your husband will grow in leadership skills in your relationship—protecting and providing for you. Pray that he will lead you wisely and love you sacrificially, so that God will be glorified in your marriage. (Eph 5:25-29; Col. 3:19)
Day 5: Pray that your husband will be faithful to his wedding vows. Pray that he will have a desire to cultivate your relationship as a sign of his loyalty and commitment to you, and as a picture of Christ’s love for the Church. (Prov. 20:6; Gen. 2:24)
Day 6: Pray that your husband will love righteousness and hate wickedness, especially the evils of the culture. Pray that he will recognize and avoid wickedness in his own life, and if necessary, take a clear, strong stand against evil. (Prov. 27:12; John 17:15; 1 Cor. 10:12-13)
Day 7: Pray that your husband will safeguard his heart against inappropriate relationship with the opposite sex. Pray that his heart will be pure and undivided in his commitment to you. (Prov. 6:23-24; Rom. 13:14)
Day 8: Pray that your husband will work hard to provide for your family to the best of his ability. Pray that the character qualities necessary for a successful career and ministry will be a growing part of his character—persistence, decisiveness, strength, an analytical mind, organizational skills, positive relationships with people, determination, etc. (Rom. 12:11; 1 Cor. 15:58)
Day 9: Pray that your husband handle finances wisely, will have discernment concerning budgeting and investments, and will be a good steward of his money in regard to giving to the Lord’s work. Pray that money will not become a source of discord in your family. (Prov. 23:4-5; Rom. 12:13; Heb. 13:5)
Day 10: Pray that your husband will cultivate strong integrity, and not compromise his convictions. Pray that his testimony will be genuine, that he will be honest in his business dealings, and will never do anything that he needs to hide from others. (Prov. 20:7; 1 Tim. 1:5, 3:7; Eph. 6:10-12)
Day 11: Pray that your husband will have a humble, teachable spirit and a servant’s heart before the Lord. Pray that he will listen to God and desire to do His will. (Prov. 15:33; Eph. 6:6)
Day 12: Pray that your husband will yield his sexual drive to the Lord and practice self control. Pray that your sexual intimacy together will be fresh, positive, and a reflection of selfless love. (Prov. 5:15, 18; 1 Cor. 7:3; Song of Solomon 7:10)
Day 13: Pray that your husband use practical skills to build your family and make wise decisions for your welfare. Pray that he will serve unselfishly. (Gal. 5:13; Phil. 2:3-4)
Day 14: Pray that your husband will speak words that build you and your family and reflect a heart of love. Pray that he will not use filthy language. (Prov. 18:21; Eph. 4:29)
Day 15: Pray that your husband will choose his friends wisely. Pray that God will bring him men who will encourage his accountability before God, and will not lead him into sin. (Prov. 13:20; Prov. 27:17)
Day 16: Pray that your husband will choose healthy, God-honoring activities. Pray that he will not live in bondage to any questionable habits or hobbies, but that he will experience freedom in holiness as he yields to the Spirit’s control. (1 Cor. 6:12, 10:31; 2 Tim. 2:4)
Day 17: Pray that your husband will enjoy his manliness as he patterns his life after Christ and strong men in the faith. Pray for his physical, emotional, mental, social, and spiritual strength. (Eph. 3:16; 1 Peter 2:21; 1 Cor., 10:11)
Day 18: Pray that your husband will have an eternal perspective—living in light of eternity. Pray that he will reject materialism and temporal values and put God first in his life. (Matt. 6:33; Deut. 6:5; Eph. 5:16; Ps. 90:12)
Day 19: Pray that your husband will be patient and a man of peace. Pray that he will not give in to anger, but will allow the Holy Spirit to control his responses. (Rom. 14:19; Ps. 34:14)
Day 20: Pray that your husband will yield his mind and thoughts to the Lord. Pray that he will not entertain immoral or impure thoughts, and that he will resist the temptation to indulge in pornography. (Prov. 27:12; 2 Cor. 10:5)
Day 21: Pray that your husband will learn how to relax in the Lord and, in his greatest times of stress, find joy and peace in his relationship with God. Pray that he will submit his schedule to the Lord. (Neh. 8:10; Prov. 17:22; Ps. 16:11)
Day 22: Pray that your husband will practice forgiveness in your relationship and with others. Pray that he will recognize any roots of bitterness, and yield any resentment and unforgiving attitudes to the Lord. (Eph. 4:32; Heb. 12:15)
Day 23: Pray that your husband will be a good father—disciplining his children wisely and loving them unconditionally. If he is not a father, pray that he will find a young man to mentor in the things of the Lord. (Eph. 6:4; Col. 3:21; 2 Tim. 2:1-2)
Day 24: Pray that your husband will have a balanced life—that he will balance work and play. Pray that he will fear God, but also gain favor with people he knows at work and church. (Luke 2:52; Prov. 13:15)
Day 25: Pray that your husband will be courageous in his stand against evil and injustice, and that he will stand for the truth. Pray that he will protect you and your family against Satan’s attacks. (Ps. 31;24; Eph. 6:13; Ps. 27:14)
Day 26: Pray that your husband will discover and live his God-given purpose. Pray that he will offer all his dreams to the Lord, and pursue only those goals that will bring God glory and count for eternity. (Jer. 29:11; 1 Cor. 10:31)
Day 27: Pray that your husband will understand the importance of taking care of his body—the temple of the Holy Spirit—for the glory of God. Pray that he will practice self-control by making wise food choices, and get sufficient exercise to stay healthy. (Rom. 12:1-2; 1 Cor. 6:19-20; 9:27)
Day 28: Pray that your husband will be a man of prayer. Pray that he will seek and pursue God in purposeful quiet times. (1 Thess. 5:17; Luke 22;46; James 5:16)
Day 29: Pray that your husband will surrender his time and talents to the Lord. Pray that his spiritual gifts will be manifest in his career, at church, and in your home. (Eph. 5:15-16; 1 Cor. 12:4, 7)
Day 30: Pray that your husband will serve God and others with pure motives. Pray that he will obey the Lord from his heart, and glorify Him in everything. (1 Cor. 10:13; John 7:17-18; Col. 3:23-24)
Day 31: Pray that your husband will recognize the lies of the Enemy in his life. Pray that his attitudes and actions will be guided by the truth as he brings his thoughts into captivity to the Word of God. (John 8:44; 2 Cor. 10:4-5)
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