Time out

God speaks loud and clear! When his child is falling, he speaks to rescue and save his children. It takes a very strong obedient one to listen.
As a child who loves the lord I heard God crying out for me. Not only that but I felt my heart becoming empty, because God was starting to disappear in my life. I was filling that empty was with other things that should not have been there.
Roger and I have realized that we have fallen away from God. Our desires are not there anymore, do because of that our relationship has started to faultier. We have decided to take a "timeout" and spend time with the lord.
I want to be in Gods will.
We are taking this time to pray about our relationship! And our relationship with God!

Its What You Deserve

Sometimes life will throw you curve balls. The question is can you catch them? Have you had enough practice???

Well I have been dealing with certain curve balls for quite sometime now.

Ive always grown up knowing we deserve the best of the best.
We should never settle for less.

a lot of these statements come from a girls perspective.
" A man should NEVER stop pursuing his woman"
"His woman should NEVER have to ask for a poem, flowers, or a simple date"
"A woman's confidence rides on the fence, because she never knows what her man is going to say or do"
"A Man should ALWAYS uplift his woman"

Why am I talking about all this? Well I have been noticing this in my relationship.
roger and I have a love for each other that's so unique in itself.

I just miss going on dates, getting flowers like i did in the beginning, i miss him chasing me... and him "pursuing" me.

I just want him to know i am struggling with this, and i have thrown up hints for ever and talked to him... but instead I get a poem from BOB Marley about I'm not the guy to send roses or write poems...... respect the guy I am.... Um no... you are not that guy, if you are then we got a lot of talking to do.

One day a guy will come by and chase a girl that he wants and I don't want that to happen to me and roger. But I have seen it happen to many times. and It has happened to me before.

I am just wanting to be treated like i know i deserve, and Roger does a very good job at everything, but we are still dating, we are not married, and i will not just sit here being bored, wondering what it would be like to go on dates or get flowers...

anyways maybe it is wrong for me to post this, it might start a fight, but i have to speak my mind. that's what blogs are for.